After competition

looking at others....laughing..haha


now this is final....................ah ya, why my face so relax??!

aiyah/...........pls.. use ur power..!! use use... hahaa..
and here's Russ and TT fighting..........handsome big boss.. :)

and....

interested to know whether i make it???

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i make it to win RM70.... finally!!!!!!!!!!!! the target i aimed for.... ahahha, but, it's 1st runner up... not champion... hahahahaa... they upgrade the prize for champion from RM70 to RM100.. haha.. anyway....... GREAT JOB!! DEAR... muaks~~~ Experience is what i gain when i do not get what i want.. :)

1 more hour to go

counting down for my arm wrestling competition.......

can't believe i am actually becoming more n more nervous.. haaha..too long never join any individual competition since uni time for the endlessssss karate matches.. hahaha...

the strategy...

the mindset.....

the preparation of the heart...

the prayer...

mmm, let the match begin.....................

I must give my best shot.... afterall, winning is not everything but the DESIRE to win is..........

Yeah~

Great inspiring Person

I was not quite happy before the shopping today.
Once again the thought of giving up hits me.

Many things that a person say can really affect the other person.
Just as we say something to kill another dream/wish of the other person, have we put a pause to think through.... "Why is the other person thinking that way?"
Could it be due to the age?
Could it be due to the experiences in his life?
Things that he been through?

And when i got back, i came across this film, "The Last Lecture-Finding your childhood dream"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ji5_MqicxSo
He died July 25, 2008. But i guess, the impact he left behind was tremendous.
Some of the key points that impacted me were:
1.) Experience is what you get when you do not get what you want.
2.) If you wait long enough, it might be months, years, the good side of the person will show up.
3.) Finding and pursueing your Passion
4.) Don't give up

And the other short clip i continued on...http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RcYv5x6gZTA&feature=user

keypoints:
1.) "I waited until the age of 39 to get marry because I am waiting to find someone whom her happiness is more important than mine"
2.) Ripple will come, what matters is what you do from your birth to the ripple.

1 key thing i realized today...........
A Leader who impacts lives is doing things out of his passion, he is fullfilling his Purpose on earth, and his life speaks for him.

I hope i will not give up on the thing on the verge of my mind, but to believe in if i wait long enough, the good in a person will show up.

Be patient, my dear.

key take away

went to the leadership take charge training today.
I thought it was somewat inspiring.

The movie of "Coach Carter", "Red Octobor", "Apollo 13".. these movies are really inspiring one!
I love them a lot. And i especially come across this quote during the end of the video presentation...

“Success seems to be largely a matter of hanging on after others have let go.” -William Feather

mm, will i achieve success tomorrow in my Arm Wrestling Competition?
I must hang on...............

The Virtuous Wife

10 Who[b] can find a virtuous[c] wife? For her worth is far above rubies. 11 The heart of her husband safely trusts her; So he will have no lack of gain. 12 She does him good and not evil All the days of her life. 13 She seeks wool and flax, And willingly works with her hands. 14 She is like the merchant ships, She brings her food from afar. 15 She also rises while it is yet night, And provides food for her household, And a portion for her maidservants. 16 She considers a field and buys it; From her profits she plants a vineyard. 17 She girds herself with strength, And strengthens her arms. 18 She perceives that her merchandise is good, And her lamp does not go out by night. 19 She stretches out her hands to the distaff, And her hand holds the spindle. 20 She extends her hand to the poor, Yes, she reaches out her hands to the needy. 21 She is not afraid of snow for her household, For all her household is clothed with scarlet. 22 She makes tapestry for herself; Her clothing is fine linen and purple. 23 Her husband is known in the gates, When he sits among the elders of the land. 24 She makes linen garments and sells them, And supplies sashes for the merchants. 25 Strength and honor are her clothing; She shall rejoice in time to come. 26 She opens her mouth with wisdom, And on her tongue is the law of kindness. 27 She watches over the ways of her household, And does not eat the bread of idleness. 28 Her children rise up and call her blessed; Her husband also, and he praises her: 29 “ Many daughters have done well, But you excel them all.” 30 Charm is deceitful and beauty is passing, But a woman who fears the LORD, she shall be praised. 31 Give her of the fruit of her hands, And let her own works praise her in the gates.

*** the quality of women who fullfills the command to fill the Lord***
hard work, fear of God, respect for spouse, foresight, encouragement, care for others concern for the poor, wisdom in handling money.

These qualities, when coupled with the fear of God, lead to enjoyment, success, honor and worth.

amen

Songs

http://video.aol.com/video-detail/theme-song-for-beijing-2008-olympic-games-we-are-ready/3155504352

Nice song.. :)
sometimes, just felt motivated and lifted up after hearing some songs.. :D

another song... by Andy Lau... very motivating as well.. :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vQwNZ85zNHs

Everyone is No.1 LyricsEveryone is No.1
作詞：劉德華/李安修　作曲：陳德健　編曲：褚鎮東
我的路　不是　你的路
我的苦　不是　你的苦
每個人都有潛在的能力
把一切去征服

我的泪 不是你的泪
我的痛　不是　你的痛
一樣的天空　不同的光榮
有一樣的感動

不需要　自怨自艾的惶恐
只需要沉著　只要向前衝
告訴自己　天生我才必有用

Everyone is No. 1
只要你凡事不問能不能
用一口氣交換你一生
要迎接未來　不必等

“挫折，真的是人生的一部分吗？“
“跌倒， 又真的是成长必须要走的路吗？”
“意外就是在人们和你自己都意想不到下才会发生的， 所以，请不要怪别人，更不要怪自己。”

Everyone is No. 1
成功的秘诀在你肯不肯
流最熱的汗擁最真的心
第一名屬於每個人

我的手不是　你的手
我的口不是　你的口
只要一條心　狂風和暴雨
都變成好朋友

不需要　自怨自艾的惶恐
只需要沉著　只要向前衝
告訴自己　天生我才必有用

Everyone is No. 1
只要你凡事不問能不能
用一口氣交換你一生
要迎接未來　不必等

Everyone is No. 1
成功的秘诀在你肯不肯
流最熱的汗擁最真的心
第一名屬於每個人

不害怕路上有多冷
直到還有一點餘溫
我也會努力狂奔

他

第一个爱上的男孩 ：）

见面了。。 他。。还是原来的那个他。
总是有说不完的道理。。讲不完的想法。。

还是很欣赏他。：）

会成功吗？

又见面了。。。。 这一次。。 我，肯定比上一次进步了。。。

会成功吗？

：）don't give up...!

好气

跟某人说话，只觉得好气。。

使自己觉得自己太厉害了吗？
还是一时的情绪不稳定？

有时，好想放弃了。。。
有时，却又觉得真的要这样吗？
为何自己的情绪总是不稳定？

好不喜欢别人对我说。。 我不能够。。。
不尝试，就是100%不能呀！
至少试了，在下另一个决定吧。。。
至少说出来。。解决呀。。

为何放弃了呢？

加油吧。。加把干劲！！！
别气了。。 要一直坚持。。。 一直学习。。。 直到把路程走完吧！

Relationship

i seriously think that relationship will be easy at first...
and i think that once you pray and ask God for the right one....
things are going to flow accordingly...........

but i guess, today, i REALIZED... it is NOT.

I dunno how to describe this.. but... the thought of relationship i have in mind were...
1.) 2 person liking each other and agree to be together
2.) they are commited to work things out together...
3.) they enjoy doing things together and have common interest
4.) they work out their differences and learn from each others
5.) they supported each other in most of the life matters/issues.. and they prayed together

and.. TODAY.. i am having issue dealing with the..DIFFERENCES... DISAPPOINTMENTS... EMOTIONAL SUPPORTS....

Ar.... that's y..............come to look at the verse again..........walow............. many WORK need to be done............ perseverance..... hahahahaa........

1 corinthians 13: 4Love is PATIENT, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not EASILY ANGERED, it KEEPS NO RECORDS OF WRONG. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, ALWAYS HOPE, ALWAYS PERSEVERE.

:(

i was pissed of with someone last nite...
just does not seems to know any of my emotion.. :(
and at the end......... i just switch my brain to OFF on that matter n go to ZZ...
i was telling myself and praying....release.... then yeah.. get to zzz.... hahaa..
dunno Y the stomach upset... been toilet 4 times... ish..
( i just felt that i am avoiding the issue....... )

and today... during the design review............. haiz....
i feedback to them that, they need to take care of this that...due to some customer issues seen outside..customer impacts.... then parts variation issue..... that will affect the quality next time...
but nobody seems to take note.........
i guess they are pretty stressed up.............. :(

And here i am.. completely disappointed with the big guy............. :(
What is he trying to tell the team??
"good work.......??!"
"guys, we want to compete with other team, and this is reality, who win the race first...."
"guys, go find out watever info you can from the other team.."
???? what concept is this???
i sometimes, i guess i am TOTALLY LOST in the matter of these..............
What concept are we teaching the engineers????
Aren't we emphasize in 49 characters??
Responsibility?? Virtue??? Humility?? Discernment???

I just completely LOST and pissed off....................
totally....................................... :(

no where to turn to.....
no one to talk to...........
everybody has their own problems... (realize this more and more..)

and 1 thing for SURE.............. DO NOT EXPECT ANYTHING from SOMEONE ELSE... NEVER!!!
Just do what you need to do...
Help those u think u need to help...
be succeed anyway.......
Don't put your life on hold because of someone...
Live Life to the FULLEST!....

Arm Wrestling Competition?!

hahahaa........saw the company promoting this competition...
they need 8 women to register.... for coming GYM opening......

so, i ajak my female engineer to register also lo.. hahaha......

See can win or not?
first prize not much lar... RM70.. but also ok lar hor.. ahhaa, if win, can go eat sakae.. yeah...!!!

pray pray...

Si mayang's house...

after reno.. haahhaa, nice also lar hor??
creative curtain.. ahhahahahaa
hahaha, table...also want to take
3 good friends............. wah, miss the old time...............

2 of my old friends..

Meeting up with them was really nice... talk a lot of old stories..remind me of many old memories.. hahaha... 1 from university time.. 1 from motorola time.. so much up and down we been through... :) mmm........

haha, we doing the same hand sign.. for both carss.... ahahahaa

naughty girl

jalan jalan in IKEA met this naughty girl.. hahaha.. miss her a lot lorrrr..... she not around, seems like missing a bit of fun.. ahhaa

i like this type of room

nice room.... so cool......... i especially love the basket ball net.. hahaha~ so nice...

Cute LadyBird.. hahhahahaha

baby venessa keeps me happy for daysss... hahahhahahaha..............
so CUTEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jogoya, Star Hill.. :D

**drinking..drinking......only me lar.... hahahaa..geoff not drinking..

*office wear....hahahaa... beh dong..so formal............ table full of stuffs...

nah leng chai geoff..

wah, the experience of jogoya was.........awesome!!!!!!!!!!

so much food..........

only eating those that i like i ady full............

sashimi... a lot!!!

fresh oyster..a lot!!

temaki..--> i like but no perut to fill..

steam crab, prawn, etc..

tempura-> eat a bit...no perut to fill..

desert..yeah!

fruits.. hahaa.. eat also

ice cream.. wow, black sesame was really nice!!

alcholic drink--> haha, drink 3 cups.. lucky not that strong...

grill-> no try..no perut to fill..

fried--> a lot........ no stomach to fill also..

diff mee--> no stomach to fill..

really a LOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTt!!!!

and it is ~RM100./ head......... long long time once it's OK lar.. hahaa..

sa pou kai fan

wah.. last nite went tesco shopping buy many stuffs for cooking...




Some item pending my list:
1.) cooking oats + raisin
2.) oat porridge + prawn + fried egg
3.) mash potato + sardin
4.) porridge + kacang
5.) sa pou kai fan..



yeah yeah..sa pou kai fan...... been thinking of making it since last week saw the TV program.. hahaa..

http://testfood.anyp.com/utestfood/19126-177121.aspx

let me try try see... hehee

walow depression

this morning woke up.................a sudden depression hit me....... :(

"adui.......going to work again."

hahaa.. apa larrrr....

double-minded... kena marah ady me today........ alamak...

A choice

I made a choice today.

I just pray that this would be the right choice.
Many people are going to tell me..............
"Why??!!"
"Have you consider this?? Have you consider that??"
"Is this wise?"
"arrr... you sure?"
"this gonna be hard.."

But, 1 thing i know.. As long as i uphold this unto His hand, He will guide me through.
That's how WONDERFUL is our God. :)

Love

No one falls in love by choice, it is by CHANCE.
No one stays in love by chance, it is by WORK.
And no one falls out of love by chance, it is by CHOICE

Bob

**picture..me, bob..mike p @trincomolee naval base

I guess i spend quite some time with bob and sometimes, he has become the person i turn to for any advises..both work and personal life.

"You gotta do something that challenge yourself!" bob mentioned.

:) mm, i am reminded about this today.

Hope he has a safe journey home today.

The Joker

The Joker ---the Dark Knight
-Wow, impressive.
-Manipulate human's mind
-Do things out of feeling......his only enjoyment is to "PLAY"..
-Daring
- To him, it just seems like nothing is important, human life, money, etc.. nothing........ but his objective is to "play" and "have fun"...

walow..somehow i felt i am becoming a bit like the joker liao at work...........
do things out of my feeling...
do watever i want..
errrr............danger danger........

Felt so LOST................................... zzzz............

some thoughts

Stayed up and chat with a friend last night before CG.. were discussing about, satisfaction in life.. achievement thus far, achievement in future.. viewing the success of others etc..

It caught me into thinking.

Then in the CG, the question " what is the past thing that God did in your life to make you know that you can trust him for your future?"

i sounded as there is none, perhaps i was really tired.
However, i knew deep in my heart that there are many....

From the early stage even before i accepted him...
He open door for me to come back to penang.
Even in the midst of job selection when i do not know how to decide, i prayed to get only 1 door open and He answered me.
Lead me to EPCC..
Lead me to take the step of faith in church camp and get baptised back in Aug 2004.
Lead me through my break up... sending many people to support me through..
Lead me to PCC..
Lead me to CYA3..
Lead me to indonesia trip, and even a small request as going up to Mt Bromo, He enabled it.
Lead me to Nepal mission trip, observe what a beautiful nation it is, and just as we ministered to the public through mimes, it just ministered to me as well.
And at the moment i feel tired of going to church and just prayed that someone there to invite me, He answered me.
Lead me in buying the house...
way too many...................

it just seems from little one to big one........ He is always faithful..
And why do i keep feeling upset and discontented?

I need to get myself reallign with Him once again......

Habakkuk 2
4 "See, he is puffed up; his desires are not upright—but the righteous will live by his faith
5 indeed, wine betrays him; he is arrogant and never at rest. Because he is as greedy as the grave and like death is never satisfied, he gathers to himself all the nations and takes captive all the peoples.
6 "Will not all of them taunt him with ridicule and scorn, saying, " 'Woe to him who piles up stolen goods and makes himself wealthy by extortion! How long must this go on?'

Tk's Baby

wah..fatherhood.......................

Navy Reunion

wah.... so nice... tk came to find me.. then.. KE came to find me.. and we pa pa lang went to find Har Har.. hahahaa...

and ngam ngam Har Har got new camera lor.. hehe..

Fu yo.........Model of the Year!

errrr

haa went KL and measure on the day come back... actually achieve 51.8KG.. hahaa..

but.. on my machine.. 53KG.. ish..

Been occupied with many things in my mind and really felt tired...........
1.) work direction
-found myself.. hard to continue at times... not much passion..perhaps due to repeatedly job and questions? (seems not also.... but i really dunno y........... )

2.) sales
-tired of thinking of sales target everyday... friend ask to join him for a business.. so much so i am seeing myself excelling there..but............ why is the first step so hard to take?

3.) housing
-the house is still there and yet to renovate... errr

room such a mess...
busy weekdays....
busy weekends.....

sometimes i just wonder............. when can i have a day of TOTAL rest arr?
Totally at peace ... mmm..