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今天。。 是有点不开心。

或许。。 开始于昨夜的意见不和吧。。
差点迟了班机。。

我，又飞了。
沉重的心。。是有点累。

满了的酒店。。
老板的牢骚。。
奇怪的德士。。
过多的体重。。

我，又怀念从前了。。

对他说了好多从前好笑的事。。
那一年的拒绝。。。
那一年的执著。。
那一年的哭泣。。
那一年的叛逆。。
那一年的快乐。。
那一年的成长。。

或许。。
未来。。有时真的有点可怕。。

人生的另一个阶段。。 好象真的没有退路。。
选择。。 就已注定终生了吗？

好可怕。。
他。。 这一次，又选对了吗？

rs300x

mmm, should i give up the garmin 405CX and settled with this.... RS300X with foot pod?

since my ultimate objective is to know my running duration, calories burned and distance.
I do not need a GPS to map my run, do i? since i am always on the same route... :P

mmmm....

WOW...

Wow, i remembered his marathon coming OCT..and i checked on this time!! WOW!!!!!!!!! 3 hours 18mins???!!! My idol!!!! He is my previous BIG BIG boss!! back in the US now.... wahseh... tak kan i run 6 hours?? haha, at least need to 5:59:59... go go go!!

He is faithful!!

wahseh.... quite a great weekend with great testimonies..!!

Despite the fact the i skipped church..(ahem..sorry sorry.....)...
God still answered my prayer.

Since our last week run was canceled due to RAIN!!...zzz..!! This week, we plan another exciting Round Island CYcling! First time Ride... First time Round the island.... And...in the morning.. it WAS raining!!!!!!!!...grrr!!!! exactly like last sunday....! I was asking Him.."God, isn't it i prayed for no rain lei..so many nights before.... sob..".. "ok nevermind, God, u r the controller on the weather..... can u plssssss make the rain stop?" "make the clouds go away...."

"Clouds..go AWAY, in Jesus Name".. ha, i was "elijah challenge" the sky..... wakkaka...

Raining still when i reach Su's house.. And i kept praying.. n when the time is near......... still raining.......SOB!!!..... waiting for the rest to arrive............. n suddenly............ i saw the clouds were shifting.... !1 yeah! Amen amen!!... n soon the rain stopped.. yeah! yahoooooo!!! A perfect weather for cycling!!! Cooling + Nice!! wow! awesome.. Thank You, God! Testimony 1...

Ok..Testimony 2...ahem.. i supposed to "due" on the 17th... and i was praying for God to help me to only "due" after the cycling... ahhahaa!! and guess what???............... ahhaahha.. I got it. !!! :D hehehehee... So i was cycling yesterday "freely" without the trouble to change pad.. hahaha!! Yeah!!! Amen Amen!

:D

Working Attire..

Pretty Cool, isn't it!!
I especially love the model behind me......

Yeng!! so Cool

so cool standing on surf board!!! my dream!!



walow so fit!!
So proud of my kor!!!

oh... the 42km......

Will i be able to make it within 6 hours???... mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm...................40days to go!! my First FM...

lan yau yeng

the photo of me showing off my cooking skillss... hahaa...

hahaa

since i notice my HP not much photo of him.... hahahaa..................

Handle the failure

mmm, i need to learn how to handle the failure even though i have given my best.....

i need to learn how to give my best again without the fear of failure and looking for excuses to cover up........

it happened during secondary school time....
each time karate tournament... when i reach the final, i always lose.. i am always the runner up...
mmm, i wonder what happen?
in the navy, i was looking for excuse not to participate in any competition... giving excuse of other ppl are better... i guess............
it must be the FEAR OF FAILURE..........?

i need to manage that FEAR, and turning the fear into a greater motivation.

go go go!!!
42km awaiting me in November....

60k sales

ha dui!!!
I missed this target!!!


!! come on... go go go

the night before Labuan

mm, so i get to go to Labuan... a brand new place.. :D at least, i am excited.
Not sure how Labuan looks like but i guess, it must be diving-heaven. or at least..sea-food heaven?

anyway, i often thank God that i am blessed with this job. :)
Many asked me, do i like my job.. yeah, finally i can say YES!! :D

I am glad that i ve managed to settle some of the big issue i am facing lately.
and also started to train for my full marathon... haha, i am on 8km now.. at least..i can run 8km non-stop.. hahaha... :P 10km next(hopefully in the Labuan's gym) n 12km by friday outside Motorola.

again and again, i am being reminded of....

fear .. fear of losing something.. fear of anything... everyone has it.
It's how you handle fear.
It's how you handle losing.
It's how you handle failure that makes the difference in one's life.

yeah~~ go go go!! handle the fear..

mm, at least something done

So went to charity run this morning.. around 7km.. i suspect i run around 40+mins... only the first 500 got medal... and haha!! i DID NOT get it..zzz

i was walking n running on the way back.. Glad that my darling ran also! :D so supportive.. heeh

After Run. I have a list of things to do:
1.) CHeck out the medical check up + PAP SMEAR package...--> apa lar, close shop..zz
2.) Fix my clock --> Yeah!! RM18, got it fix!! 3 months waranty!
3.) My hair dryer--> ish! dunno Y.......... suddenly smoke just come out...-> pending for darling to fix for me.
4.) Wisdom tooth--> went Xray my wisdom tooth, Doc said if it is causing trouble, and always pain, it is best that i pluck it off.. due to my tooth grow at the very end of my jaw.. and block by the bone.. i need to go through a minor operation.. migth cost at least RM400.... sob!! $$$$$$$$$$... not so much about the money though.. but are you sure, you are paying to SUFFER? arr!! i need to prepare my heart for this!!!
5.) Clean up my living room--> got the curtain hang up!! yeah!! NICE

Then we went to watch the Ugly Truth.. ahah! quite a funny show.

n went to SAKAE!! wow.. RM66.. sometimes, i think, things are getting more n more expensive out there... wahseh.. RM66 may be i can buy 3KG prawns and eat already... still left with some $$..haaha..

anyway! great weekend. :D Hope my cough faster recover........................................

Hair Cut

Finally, I GOT A HAIR CUT!!

CUT OFF my SAMSENG-alike hair......... !!

yeah!! back to short nice shoulder length... :D

Cleaning the MESS>..

Wanted to clean up my room today..... ( not so messy la.. ahaha)...
Just want to fold the shirts...

and i started with getting rid of the old clothes in the living room...........
then.. as i clean up the old clothes.. i might as well clean up the living room..the "rubbish" beside the refrigerator.. separated out those belong to my sis and mine... (it's been 1 year i pend this aside... still yet to move all her stuffs for her...) SISTER< please give me ur troley!!!...

and.. i took off the curtains for wash..... hahaa, 5 years staying in this house.. this is the 2nd time i wash the curtains.. ahaha, of course, the curtains only washed by me so far..... ahhaa.. IMAGINE the DUST!!!!...........

and i wipe the table.... rearrange the kitchen utensils.....

WOW~~ now, everything is nice.. at least better than before!! :D

Lesson learned: JUST DO IT!!!!!................. Don't postpone... drag... !!

Yet To do by this year:
1.) Medical Check up.. especially the ladies one..grrr!!! i dreaded this..!!
2.) my wisdom tooth......---> check again see if need to pluck off... :(
3.) Car --> paint my car's top, change my meter, change my dashboard, change the suspension ( wow, $$$$$ )
4.) Repair my heater --> $$$ again.

Go go Go!!

Cough Cough Cough

I been having bad cough lately...

Started with sore throat..
then...cough a little, fever a little...flu a little

Quickly went to see chinese doctor which i used to recover quite fast after eating the medicine..
eee! medicine finished........... cough still there.

then i lost my voice...

and my mum bought me another chinese medicine which also i used to eat and recover pretty fast... weird.. almost finish the medicine, no effect. :(

My phlegm is still in green color today.

So i went to Clinic today............ Doc gave me a quite strong medicine......

#%#% and.. i am quite dizzy now............. duh~~~

Hopefully.. i can recover soon. Amen~~

Growing Up

I realized.... growing up is not a really fun thing as i thought it would be....

Been through different heartaches...
different obstacles in life...
different encounters...
different lessons we have learned..

As i look back.. i missed the Q2-Q3 2006 i guess..
those fun time..
first flight to Hong Kong alone..
first time i got myself a tanned skin..
first time i pierced my ears..
first time i got my eye brow trimmed..
first time i got my OWD license...
first time i felt appreciated & respected by a great friend..
first time i really let go of my old self and regained confident..
everything was so exciting for me during that time...

i missed those time..
i missed those people i spent my time with...
Great is i took a lot of pictures.. :) and i gotta see all of them tonight.

:) Yess!!! i need to treasure my time now.. because, i know, 1 day, i will miss 2009...... :)

sometimes

sometimes
-i need forgiveness for making mistakes too...

sometimes
-i need a pad on the shoulder, an encouragement "you can do it too"...

sometimes
-i need attention too..

sometimes
-i just need to know that i am greatly loved.

sometimes
- i just need some time to forgive someone completely.

sometimes
- i just need to breakthrough.

Sick

so i am sick....

and today, i think i disappoint some ppl...
1.) those friends from KL....
i told them i gonna go eat with them.. but i think i just cannot....
hardly talk.. could not eat anything beside "cheng cheng" one....
they asked me for hiking up Penang Hill too... ar? how could i do that?

2.) SBW
my aiyah tai lou.... he arranged a training for me.. but i ffk him last min.

arh! i think this sickness comes at a very bad timing. :(

SORRY SORRY SORRY...............
SORRY everyone!!

a day started with....

I woke up on 4:15am yesterday.
Anticipated to watch Roger Federer, how will he beats Del Potro (someone who beat Nadal 6-2, 6-2, 6-2) on the semifinal.
8:30am....I was stunned.
My beloved-Roger Federer was beaten too. 6-3, 6-7, 6-4, 6-7, 2-6... :(
Heavy hearten, i went to office, rewinding the double fault on the fourth set tie breaker..."he should have scored.... why........"
I was upset.
I then felt misunderstood by some people.
I then explained.
I then felt rejected.
I then felt bad.
I then had bad sore throat.
and i drove back... broken.

After 2 cups of lime + honey..
After 1 cup of panadol soluble...
I, forced myself into the bed at 8pm.
My heart was broken, repeatedly thinking of the discussion over the lunch time in the afternoon, the sense of rejection, the many disappointment i felt.. the Roger Federer-should-not-have-lost emotion............

I then came across a book on my book shelf... "Porridge for the Believer- Reggie Lee".
I remembered whom i have trusted.
I remembered His love.
I remembered His promises of never leave me nor forsake me.
I then flipped the book.

Chapter 22: Gossip, Presumptuousness & Taking Offence.
Gossips- taking things negative about another person, spreading information about another without approval. It is the art of saying "nothing" in a way that leaves "nothing unsaid". Gossip is that which no ones claims to like but which everybody enjoy.
( i was stunned....... I was being convicted... )

Esclesiates 7:21,22
Also do no take to heart everything people say,
Lest you hear your servant cursing you.
For many times, also, your own heart has known
That even you have cursed others.
(how true....... i had took what others said into my heart...... and i knew too that i have cursed others too.... )

Presumptuousness
-This is a real killer, big time and small time. One cannot count the damage it can do and most of the time we are not aware we are presumptuous in things very small but it can still cause major problems. Consider the following true incidents:
a.) During WWII, the Americans were warned about impending Japanese Invasion. They presumed that the Jepanese couldn't fly from Japan and bomb Pearl Harbour. That moment of error caused many American lives and a place in history.

b.) A helpful man who used to give lifts to Christians including some women was sighted by some nosy people who instead of checking out, reported it to his wife and had the relationship of this couple been not strong, it would have easily caused problems.

c.) At face value, sometimes you can form an opinion of a person without knowing him/her. Based on these presumptions, we behave accordingly to our "beliefs". If the presumptions are negative, a bad mental picture of the person is formed. Unless, you are willing to put aside the mental picture and make the move to know him, this can continue for years and the moment any controversy arises, you will be too quick to judge.

Taking Offence
A pastor might preach a message "hurtful" to your ears, a tactless person might say something that might hit you below the belt or it is just a misunderstanding sometimes of wrong choice of words and you have taken offence. Many people I know, left church over such trivial matters like pastors preaching too much on tithes and offerings, taking offence can cause a relationship to grow cold too if you refuse to communicate with the offenders.

Anything you hear that is not pleasing to your ears can dwell in your thoughts. (yes, i completely agreed)
Forgiveness is a key word to erase it while your maturity in CHrist can see it as a small graze that does you no harm. ( FORGIVENESS............ a conviction once again!! )
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I was convicted for being presumptuous, gossips and taking offence.
That day, I learned FORGIVENESS before i sleep.