Wednesday, September 19, 2007

As i grow older

As i grow older..
a.) i start to realized that we need to be very flexible on the incident that's happening each day and learn to grow from it.
b.) i need to face the fear in order to overcome it and not running away and hide.
c.) i need to be responsible for my own actions and words.
d.) i am accountable for every decision i made.
e.) i am living in a community and we can only grow by trying to give our best to the community and build relationships. Never ever by isolation.
f.) What is unconditional love.
g.) What is perseverance.


Monday, September 17, 2007


1st time in my life, i am being chosen as "Secretary"..

to tulis minutes of meeting..
to record any observation..

walow..... I am super good in making SUMMARY.


wa.. I start to think.. Am i portraiting a behaviour that christian suppose to protrait?

i angry..
i lepas geram..
i scold ppl...curse bad words..

aiseh aiseh....
then i take bible read and pray..and suddenly i sing..

"神啊。。救救我吧。。。"and there u go.. my bro laughing beside me..aiseh..

the SIM and i

My 1st PC game in my life~

Mushroom Head

Cut a mushroom head hairstyle......and the 1st reaction of my brother......


:~ AISEh~~~ get lost from my room......
no need use my laptop play CC game.....
no need use my pillow...
no need drink my water...
no need ask me pau KFC..


Nice Breakfast

Made a wonderful breakfast..
Wonderful Mood...
Wonderful surrounding..
Ha~ i wonder.....should or should i not make that decision????
Who can tell me?

When you have finally lost her.

When you have finally lost her................

1.) you regretted that you don't treat her well when you were together
2.) you miss every goodness of her
3.) you miss her whenever you quarrel with your current partner
4.) you still think that she is the most understanding girl on earth
5.) you keep thinking..thinking..thinking.....

the point is, when she still love you, she is waiting..waiting..waiting..........and finally.........she loves u no more...... and you wanted her back. Love= timing?

Which Stage are you?

Life is the process of finding love;every person will need to find four people in their life.
First person is you,
Second person is the one you love most,
Third person is the one who love you most,
And the fourth is the one you spend the rest of your life with.

I wonder which stage i am in??
First person is you, --> just recently found!
Second person is the one you love most,--> i guess i know who he is.. hehehee..
Third person is the one who love you most,--> errr.. who arr? who arr?? can't really recall... so not yet in this stage...
And the fourth is the one you spend the rest of your life with. --> definitely not in yet.. hahaa, going to be 27years old soon............ see la if can meet him ..ahhaa

***the bla bla bla*****************
In life, firstly you will meet with the one you love most, and learn how love feels.Because you know how love feels, so you can find the person who loves you most.When you have experienced the feeling of loving others and being loved, you will then know what it is you need most.Then you will find the person who is most suitable for you, to be able to spend the rest of your life with.

Sadly, in real life, these three people are usually not the same person.The one you love most doesn’t love you.The one, who love you most, is never the one you love most.And the one you spend your life with, is never the one you love most or the one who love you most. She is just the person who happens to be at the right place at the right time.

No person will purposely have a change of heart. At the point in time when she loves you, she really loves you. But when she doesn’t love you anymore, she really doesn’t love you anymore. When she loves you, she can’t pretend that she doesn’t. Same goes, when she loves you no more, there’s no way she can pretend she loves you.

When a person doesn’t love you and wants to leave you.You must ask yourself if you still love her,If you also don’t love her anymore, do not keep her just to save your pride.If you still love her, you should wish her happiness,And hope that she will be with the one she loves most, not stop her from it.If you stop her from finding true happiness with the one she loves, it shows you already don’t love her,And if you don’t love her, what rights do you have to blame her for a change of heart?

Love is not possessive,If you like the moon, you can’t just take it down and put it in your basin,But the moonlight still shines upon you.In other words, when you love a person, you can use another method of possessing the person. Let her become a permanent memory in you life.If you really love a person, you must love her for what she is.Love her for her good points, and the bad,You can’t wish for her to become like what you like her to be just because you love
When you really love a person, you cannot find a reason why you love her,You only know that no matter when and where, good mood or bad mood, you will wish to have this person be with you.Real love is when two people can go through the toughest problems without asking for promises or listing criterias.In a relationship, you have to put in effort and give in at times, not always be on the receiving end.Being away from each other is a type of test,If the relationship isn’t strong, then you can only admit defeat.Real love will never become hate.

When two people are in love,They love to ask each other to swear, to make promises.Why do they ask each other to swear and promise?Because they don’t trust each other, they don’t trust their lover.These swear and promises are useless;“Till the sky falls, till the ocean dry, my love for you will never change!”We all know that the sky will never fall;the ocean will never dry,Even if it does happen, are we still alive by then?

Be careful when making promises;don’t make promises that you cannot keep.Swear by things that can never happen, because it can never happen, so no harm just saying it casually.Remember? Swearing by things that can never happen are the most touching!!?In a relationship, what you say is one thing, but what you do is another;The one saying, doesn’t believe; the one listening, also doesn’t believe.
In a world so big, which person have you found so far?
And who has found you?

Thursday, September 06, 2007


Suddenly, i fall in love with Singapore. Why?
because i bought my "SIMS complete collection" + "SIMCity4 deluxe and rush hour edition" at Changi.


Pretty cool PDA phone around in the mall too...............
i don't like iphone.
i prefer cooler and tougher look, of course with microsoft mobile 6, outlook, msn, skype, gps, camera, memory..

NOt sure if i can play my SIMS with PDA? wahahahahahahhaah~~~

Freaking cool!!!!!!!!!

Performance Performance

Had "arguments" going on within our group meeting with small boss just now.


I just hope things will turn out to be alright.........haizzzzzzz~~~~

but seeing and talking to big boss....hahaa, at least, i felt better :D Yeah~~
Lucky still got like 1 person. :D

Just dunno how to describe things.. :(
Complaint to my bro just now... haizzz..and My sister said, y lar u don sit down and keep quiet, let him say lor, since he is the boss.........haizzzzzzzz.. "why lar hor??"...

dunno le............... Perhaps, again, i am not good at pretending to be alright when things are not right. :(

Too honest once again............ A virtue? Sure?......

Out of Place

Feeling a bit out of place right after i come back..

So much complaints about boss...
So much pending works to follow up..
Some ppl resigned :(
Some going to resigned..( i hope not)


Wednesday, September 05, 2007

So close yet so far

the feeling of unreachable..................................
separated by a thin glass........

"my darling.... "


Mt bromo

magnificent view..


Transition of the clouds........awesome, isn't it?

Tuesday, September 04, 2007

Ikatan Covalen

hahaa..forgot about this!

Just shared to a friend..not sure why......
i just love...
the feeling of transitting at airport..
the plane's food..
the flying in a plane's feeling..
the sky view from the plane..

just as i said.."how to get married larrr if i have this kinda feeling??"

And he said.. u r Zarah tak stabil.. find lar the ikatan covalen...

HAHAHAHAHhhahHAHAHHAh~~~~ What a nice thought!! :D
TQ ya...................

Mega Church--> Bethany, Surabaya

1.) Helicopter view

2.) inside...during worship...

3.) 3rd floor banners..
4.) view from 3rd floor before service

visitted this church on sunday, attended their sunday service.

WOW~~~ I AM REALLY IMPRESSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The Legend of Sampoerna

Main Entrance.......see the 4 huge cigarattes?

then this is the baby one.. not yet cut..

this is finished good. Smell quite nice, not like normal cigarattes..
outside shop selling.. 7000 rp

me with many many 1000rp

me with Moses..
Making cigarattes....

Budiman Hidajat

Mmm.. Just admire this man i met here.

His hospitalbility.
His gentleness.
He is a successful entrepreneur and yet he is a very humble person.
He pays full attention to you when you talk.
He nodded his head and seek to understand the situation.
He sees things from different angle.
He raised a good son.
He speaks politely.
He dresses smartly.
He valued intregrity.

Wow~ I simply admire him.

Saturday, September 01, 2007

1st weekend at indon

oh, here i am, having my 1st weekends here in Surabaya..
Work has finally come to a rough conclusion.. but..ah ha!! Yeahh, i get to go to visit the place which i wanted to visit... hehehehe~~ So happy~

bromo, i am coming......... u wait for me ya....... :D

My 2nd trip here is consider to be better than the last one where daily, i am basically travelling in the jeep for 10 hours..
right now, cut the travelling to 2 hours by staying on the island itself. :D
but still..daily..reported back to hotel after dark....... haahha..but, just thankful that do not need to travel so long each day... :D

Met the Hidajat's family.. Pretty nice ppl.. :D
Nice dad + Nice son... keep thinking's true..
"like father, like son"

:D Just sudden weird thougth coming out from my mind....
What kinda next generation i am building?.. heheehhe~~~

tall, dark, handsome?
fair, polite?
tough, macho?
smart, naughty, sweet?