Monday, December 25, 2006

no comments

ee.. i notice.. some of u readers.. have not been giving me comments already?

ee.. wat happen ar?

4 more days to 2007!

wah.. Scary! Looking at the calendar.. 4 more days to welcome 2007@@@@!!!

:D Great!

A friend gave me the calendar for mission book? err.. need to follow already.. 2007 bible reading..
then.. my church also got the program reading bible chronologically in 2007.. 1st quarter book is already out!
wah.. 4 more days only........ i need to follow the plan already... oopss.. :D very anticipating.... keke

Also.. Sunny day is coming~~ Got heart to go for a fun dive this coming March! :D
1.) March- fun dive - budget 1K
2.) Mission trip- budget 3K
3.) Siem Reap-budget 1K

haha.. oops...... perhaps, just option 1 and 2 is enough for this year.. the rest of the trips.... kekee.. kekekee.. Hope God give me free one lor this year... yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh............

Also for ministry in new church... kekeke.. will survey..
1.) Children Ministry
2.) Youth Ministry
3.) Kitchen Ministry--> pretty interesting!!!!!!
4.) SUpport ministry--> interested too..!!

:D Yeah~ Let's see how..............

This year 2007.. everything new hopefullly!!
hope to get a love one also.. yeah~~~~ So that next year christmas.. i can get a better camera.. ahhahahaha.......... yeah~~~

Friday, December 22, 2006

mm..

someone mentioned something to me lately... just found that he is very cute and funny.. hahahaa~~

Met a lot of interesting guys lately.. hahaa..
Hope will continue to meet more.. as i need to catalog.. hahahahhaa.....

THose that are close to me.. u know what's my catalog means.. :P

Process start... Grand opening, today... Dec 22, 2006.. :D
Let's see how many i got.. ~

Wednesday, December 20, 2006

Dec 20, 2006

Yesterday was Motorola TEchnical Symposium..
Kinda special for me this year.. as i was one of the Emcee for EE Track! hahahahaa~~~
Surprised a lot of my friends... as i kept this as low profile all the while.. hahahaha~~

Managed to go around snap photos with entau one.. as my usual hobbies.. :D hahahaa~~

1.) Ahem... 1st photo is with my partner... Male Emcee for EE Track.. :P
2.) With Alex.. my colleague in MOL Team..
3.) With geoff.. one of the presenter of ME paper....

4.) With geoff's sister... Andrea.... One of the Emcee!!! :D

5.) With all the mechanical leng chai... kekekee

6.) With all the TOP folks... pretty lerr..

7.) My very good friend... :D

8.) With bernard and alvin...........

9.) With Chen..

10.) WIth Kenneth, the Main MC of the day! leng chai ler.. but too bad lar..taken already... hahaaa



11.) Definitely leng lui!!!....one of the Usher

12.) Lastly.. The Managing Director of Motorola... haahaa.... TT.. always badminton together on Saturday.. A very fit guy!!!!

Monday, December 18, 2006

For Single to remember.

A great testimonial i read lately... About God specializes in Heart Keeping.. :D Here's the summary. :)


1. Leave it to HIM ( Relinquish, Trust, Obey ) Trust
that HIS Plans ( His Timing, His Choice ) are always the
BEST Plans - better than anything we can humanly plan or even
imagine

2. Ask HIM to guard our hearts ( from foolish emotional
entanglements / foolish daydreams ) - if we really mean it, rest
assured HE WILL guard our hearts

3. Keep your Aims and Ideals - Never everEverEVER settle for
less !!

4. As in all things, keep focussed on GOD ( Never ever worship
the guy or make the guy or the "relationship" our idol )

5. But we are only human - sure to have moments of loneliness,
frustration, desperation, envy, wishfulness etc. - in such
times, just bring it to HIM la ;) - dump it all at HIS feet
( remember always go to HIM first - so He can stop us from
doing anything stupid/ tempting :) )

A wonderful day today :)

Got a new housemate last nite! :D

Thursday, December 07, 2006

Psalms 3

3:1 A Psalm of David, when he fled from Absalom his son. LORD,
how are they multiplied that trouble me? many [are] they that
rise up against me.
3:2 Many [there are] who say of my soul, [There is] no help for
him in God. Selah.
3:3 But thou, O LORD, [art] a shield for me; my glory, and the
lifter up of my head.
3:4 I cried to the LORD with my voice, and he heard me from his
holy hill. Selah.
3:5 I laid me down and slept; I awaked; for the LORD sustained
me.
3:6 I will not be afraid of ten thousands of people, that have
set [themselves] against me on all sides.
3:7 Arise, O LORD; save me, O my God: for thou hast smitten all
my enemies [upon] the cheek bone; thou hast broken the teeth of
the ungodly.
3:8 Salvation [belongeth] to the LORD: thy blessing [is] upon
thy people. Selah.

Friday, December 01, 2006

Something to always remember

Read through the article in http://www.pastors.com/pcom/sermons/freesermons.asp yesterday.

"How to profit from your problem"
it's based on James 1:2-6..
James 1:2-6 Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind.

Here's the summary:
4 facts of life
1.) Problems are inevitable
2.) Problems are unpredictable
3.) Problems are of many kinds
4.) Problems are purposeful
What purpose? --a.) Problems purify my faith
b.) Problems fortify our patience
c.) Problems sanctify my character

How to handle your problems?
1.) Rejoice
2.) Request --> Pray, ask for wisdom
3.) Relax --> Trust God

:) Let's walk our life together.......... :) And always always remember all these. :)

Also John 16:33, I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble, But take heart! I have overcome the world.

oops.. someone better is coming?

"doo..doo............" my handphone rang.
"hey.. i am moving out now, i found a new job in KL and the new work start in Monday."
stunned...i replied.."mm, ok..... so, you have decided. :)"
"ya... i placed the key somewhere XXX.. "
"ok.. Good luck and take care.."

......
....

Ya, My housemate decided to go. And ya, it's the handsome one. oh no!
Well, perhaps he has gone for good. :)

Just as my heart was not so stable yesterday.. and this problem suddenly arise... Once again, i kept quiet in my CG for a long time. Think my facial expression just expresses my inner feeling most of the time......... aiks...... a weakness or a strength?

Recalled this:
Psalms 126:5-6 Those who sow in tears shall reap with joyful shouting. He who goes to and fro weeping, carrying his bag of seed, shall indeed come again with a shout of joy, bringing his sheaves with him.


Once again...... i need to persevere......... i need to move on......... i need to take action................

Lord, mold my character into someone you want me to be. Help me to know you better each day. Amen!

Sunday, November 26, 2006

alamak~~!! apasal

mm.. yesterday pandu kereta balik rumah.. on the bridge..oopsssssss......!!! teringat my ex.......... alamak........

entah apasal............

last night dreamt of him... alamak.......apasal.......!!

haha.. well, to view this.. 2 ways...
1.) You can view it negatively... ahh..hurtful, heartache, etc etc..
2.) You can view it positively.. it's hurtful, but see How God has guided you through?..
It's hurtful, but see How much you have grow in him?
It's hurtful, but, see how far have you persevere...?
It's hurtful, but.. see.... How many people have He sent to be with you?

yeah.....A heart of Gratitute..... Praise the Lord.. :D

2006-- A year of Restoration and Preparation..
2007-- A year of work......... :D (to someone..yeah, i read your blog :P)

:D Yeah........ 2007.. I am coming......!!!!

James 1:17
Every Good Gift and Every perfect gift is from above, and comes down from the Father of Lights

:D

FTZ badminton competition



This is our women team for badminton competition held lately vs all the others factories in free trade zone....... mmm..........

We lost badly.. :(

Lesson learned
1.) Must practise
2.) Must be familiarize with your partner
3.) Must do something out of your passion.....(this passion thing been stirring my my head always... since a week before the Nepal mission trip.. until now........ mmm........ )

:D Great lessons i learned. good!

Carolling

haha, last saturday in church, practise some christmas song for the carolling coming .. hhaaa.. first time practise that...... :D

Overall.. hahaha, singing christmas song always cheer me up.. kekeke~~

Will be singing for the children in hospital....... Hope we will be able to bring joy for them..... yeah~~~....

yess yess.. Christmas is coming~~~~!!!

Decision 3

Another decision to make.

Hope God will speaks to me...... :D

mmm~~ Anticipating 2007................

What colour is your Parachute?

Finished reading this book.
I guess, it is a great book, pointing to you what do you love to do, a great book of teaching you how to deal with changes, handled interview, finding your passions and also your purpose on earth. :)

Quite a good book.. but not til the level of "super good".. a lot of work need to be done.. :P hahaha.... especially in the process of searching for your passions.. mm... so, i am kinda lazy to do some.. :P but, roughly, after reading this book....... mm, ya.. it did open up my mind a bit. :D

Overall.. It's a book that i would recommend for those seeking for places to use their talents God provided and wants to multiply them.. :D yeah........~~

:D

oh no~

Wanted to post this some time ago.....

my close friend at work place leaving to KL........ :D picture of all of us together........
Hope as he venture to KL... yeah.. May the Lord bless him abundantly!!! :D

outside our office..


makan makan..... farewell dinner..


oh no~~~

hahaha

Thursday, November 16, 2006

http://www.pastors.com/pcom/sermons/freesermons.asp

A friend gave me this site yesterday.
This is a great site. :)

oh no!

Woke up this morning and prayed..

Habakuk 2:1-2 I will climb my watchtower and wait to see what the Lord will tell me to say and what answer He will give to my complaint. The Lord gave me this answer:"Write down clearly on tablets what I reveal to you, so that it can be read at a glance."

Read through the chapter of Numbers.... :) About Moses leading the people to the promised land but they refused to go. They are almost there....
Realized something.

Do not lost hope in God, because He has guided you so far. He will not leave you now though you are almost reaching your goals. yeah.. :D Almost almost there......

Ya.. Almost.. Don't lose hope. :)

Memorise this:
Luke 12:48
From everyone who has been given much, much will be demanded; and from the one who has been entrusted with much, much more will be asked.

:)
One of my close friend is leaving Penang......... :~ A day of remembrance.

Sunday, November 12, 2006

Project

The last project i did.
1.) Before~~kasih hantam aje........


2.) After~~~




Closer Look............








However................. melvin told me that.....due to their failure in relocation..n never take extra care....... it seems that the bell is missing now....... and some of the blue paper flakes are falling off.....!!!... It's sad to think of your final art work being destroyed a little........... but...... nevermind~.. let me look forward........

Saturday, November 11, 2006

First Decision

Friday midnight.. I received an sms from someone.......

I think i am quite cleared.....

Yesterday, i wept........ And finally i said it out.. "I gotta quit from KJC.."
and i went back and wept once again.........
It's a hard decision.
Finished up the last project yesterday.... I felt so sorry for all my friends....... :~
"You ok?"... obviously i am not! But.. i just kept quiet and finished up my last project together with Andrew and Melvin.. felt so sorryyyy.........

saturday night in church, with a close friend of mine.... my emotion was rampant....

Some how, it really felt as if i have nothing left here anymore...
it just felt as if no strength anymore....
i wept secretly........... :~

Once again, i told myself..... I gotta persevere............... I got a purpose on earth...... a mission to fullfill......

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

somebody

went out with a close friend of mine last nite.

:) It was wonderful!

Monday, November 06, 2006

Target

wah.. yesterday measure my body weight, oopssssssssss!! Put on weight already!!!
3KG behind my target!!!

Mmm.. Now going to have a beach party this coming Dec............. Time to reduce weight and toning back already.....

I gotta search for my bikini......... guess very long time been forgotten!!....... !!!

4 more weeks to go........!!!!

RND Dinner and Dance Night

Nov 3, 2006.. MOtorola RND Dinner and Dance night! after almost 3 years working here.. this is the 1st DND night that i attended!! hahaa.. Cause the theme is something i am very familiar with......... "Beach"....... Yeahh..

Mana datang itu kelapa??

Damien is so cool!!!!... He is a pro in Drum!!!

Appu and his gf.. wow~ sexy, isn't she?? Love her style!!!

Future GUitarist of the world!!.. He is gonna rock the world!! :D

Bernard and i......... wah! My dream comes true.. I always wish to take photo with surfing board!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mayang and i....... apa nie mayang tak pakai macam pergi beach??!

Another guitarist of the day!!

ha, brother, what are you doing with the fire extinguisher??

So.. see all my surfing boards photos with cool guys?? hahahha...............

Tuesday, October 31, 2006

Philipians

Read the whole book of Philipians last night.
Shared my experiences in Nepal last night too.

I finally felt what Paul felt in Philipians!! :~

I had a desire last night.. which i committed to His hand.

"Pakailah sesuai dengan rencanamu..................."

at the edge once again..

I felt i am at the edge of a important decision that i am going to make.

Once again,
A choice to make.
A risk to take.
A direction to choose.
A prayer for direction needed.

I hope He will reveal His will for me end of the month.

Trust in the LORD with all your heart; and lean not unto your own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and He shall direct your paths. Be not wise in your own eyes: fear the LORD, and depart from evil. Proverbs 3:5-7

Monday, October 30, 2006

Ku tetap Cinta Yesus Selamanya

Ku Mahu cinta Yesus selamanya..
Ku mahu cinta yesus selamanya..
Meskipun bagai silih berganti dalam hidupku..
Ku tetap cinta yesus selamanya..

Ya abba bapa..
ini aku anakmu..
Layakkanlah seluruh hidupku.......

Ya abba bapa..
ini aku anakmu..
Pakailah sesuai dengan rencanamu.........


Hear My prayer, Lord........... :~

What's next?

Challenged by this question after the Nepal Trip.. "What's next?"..

mm....

Many things took place at the Nepal trip.. It was an awesome one! Saw many things.. includes deliverance, encounter with Maoist, roadblock, children gambling around, street performance, children ministry, lead childrens into sinners prayers, children ministry, lay hand on people to pray.. A lot!! It was awesome!!!...

Nepal is a place full of needs.. Saw the people there, they just live day by day.. and yet, we were so luxurious over here and complained.. Electricity can just suddenly cut off.. water supply were scarce.. some were quite dirty.. Road were not properly tar.. youngsters wandering around the streets, day dreaming without doing anything... people were in needs!!..

:) mm.. direction.. decision..... future....... I uphold all these into His Mighty Hand.

SuMei and i.. Nepal flag..

Beautiful Lakeside at Pokhara..

wonderful mountain behind..Annarpurna..

Took around 3K++ photos altogether.... so i picked 3 of them.. hahaha~~ enough.. :D

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

To Nepal

Tomorrow,..
445am- bangun..
5am- orang datang pick aku ..
530am- pick another team mate..
before 6am.. reach Penang international Airport..

I am flying to Nepal~ finally...... :)

Time to change life~~ yeah......
Time to experience a different level of faith... yeah..

Yesss!!!..

Ahem... U guys wait for me to come back nah~

Sunday, October 15, 2006

Prayer Answered... and then.. ada bonus lagik!!

wah~~ Can you all believe it??.. Been praying and have sleepless night on the bus to Gunung Irau back in early Oct.. I told God.. "God, can you help me to settle my housemate issue before i go to Nepal?.. My Mind keep wandering around.. worrying.... "

And then...... 2nd days.. Many called to come and take a look at my house..
But, none of them replied..

And then... someone called. "Hey, Is ur house's room still available?".. "ohh.. ya..." ".. I want to move in.." "huh?? wat? U don't even see the room yet???!!".. "i already got rough idea.. i confirm want to move in.."..

Walamak~~..

So anticipating his arrival yesterday.... He decided to move in........ And Mayang and i help him out..

Wah~ So now... I got a new housemate!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yessss!!!

And... errr.... ahem.......... The bonus part is..... He is pretty handsome! :D kekeekkekekeke~~~

Praise God..... yahoooooooooooo...........

PS: prayer request.. tolong ku pray for my housemate relationship.. help us to build up strong relationship and support to one another.. :) Hope things will be running fine for him to adjust into our house too. :)

Monday, October 02, 2006

An apartment

went to a friend's apartment yesterday.. wah~~.. cantik gilak!
The view was awesome.. just the pool lacked a bit.. keke~~
But the Gym, function room, environment, house.. all.. mm.. perfect!..

So he is getting married soon........ Congrates!!!

** and i was joking... I want to stay with my In-Laws in the future.. wahahahhaha~~~ more happening... :P

Decision

I made a decision.. to choose B.. from my old old blog..

And now, in B.. i am way way way..better~

n somehow, some supported me in B, some ask me to turn back to A.. wat??!!

somehow..somewhat... i feel that "signal" is asking me to choose "B".

Let me just stick with "B" and if i am on the wrong track, He will turn me back. :)

Sunday, October 01, 2006

Questions again..

"Hey.. so.. u and your XX...?"
"wat?.. me and him? pls........" reclarification i made..
"R u not jealous?"..
"huh? Jealous?? For wat??...... "..

Cleared.

"U ever consider XX?"
.... again~~...............
"nah..not my type..........."
"Y not?...."
"not my type..."
..."ok.."

Cleared...

Apple/Orange?.. ~ then i choose Lemon... hahahaa...~~

Transition..

mm.. Seems like 2006 is a transition year for me..

Since just did Check Point 2 with boss just now.. Let me do my own checkpoint here..

mm..
1.) Single life... so far so good.. up and down, but learned quite a lot.. great progress..
2.) Work wise.. mm.. seems ok only.. still searching for my passion..and awaiting for His direction..
3.) Travel wise.. mm.. quite fun.. been to places like HatYai, Hong Kong, Macau, Water rafting, Lang tengah.... Took Open Water Dive.. mm..
4.) Spiritual wise.. mm.. been closer to God.. Hope will continue to be close...
5.) Relationship with people.. mm.. so far so good... getting more and more new friends..
6.) Housemate wise.. Change housemate.. in transition..
7.) CG wise.. mmm.. been great.... :D


2007 Plan..
mmm........ Still praying... Got some major plans coming up!.. mm

finding housemate

mm.. so discuss with my housemate.. make a deal that he ll pay til OCT.. no need to wait til we find housemate.. not quite fair for him also~

So.. It's a choice time again!
A.) i Pay RM185 extra..
B.) Share half half with my housemates.. (housemate tak mau!)
C.) Find new housemate(must pray hard)
D.) Reduce rental from House Owner til we find..(mmmm?.. perhaps can consider?)
E.) Move out lor.......

mmm.... Wonder how is it gonna be?

I just need a place with Swimming Pool~~~............. That's it.. :D kkekekek~~~

Friday, September 29, 2006

Time

"I care for you and I love you.. That's why i spend my TIME with you......."

24hours a day..no more no less.. and i am giving you a portion of my life. :)

:D

Wonderful when i think of this..
Don't expect.. But give more..
Don't demand.. But pray more..
Don't worry.. But have peace..
Don't stagnate..But move on.. :)

A statement

"hey.. guess u been thinking too much... relax..step by step la......."

:) A sudden revelation..

Questions

"hey..i want to ask u something..... R u dating with Mr XX?"

"huh??... no.........."

"y not??.. He is a great guy and both of you look matching.."

"huh??.......... merely good friend"

"y not consider him??...."

"huh??... don want la..... fren is good enough... :)"

:D

Great Hanging out..

Today.. hang out with my old flame.. secondary school.... :D

yeah.. Time change.. ppl change.. both grow older..and our experiences also reach another level of maturity.. :D

yeah.. A great hang out!!...

Wish we will have more hang out in the future to update each other once in a while~~.. :D

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

3 more weekends to go

Look at the calendar.. it seems it's only 3 more weekend to go for my nepal trip~~

Sept30-OCT 1= daddy birthday.. balik rumah~
Oct7-OCT8 = friend ajak me to hike Gunung Irau~ and eat mooncake at the top of mountain.. mm...should i go? should i not??.. decision again~~
OCT14-OCT15= this is part of my prayer n fasting week... ha~ also need to practise Drama for the trip...

Wah.. Then..
OCT19........................ !!!!!!........... I gonna Fly~~~~.....

Eagerly waiting.....!!!!

Tuesday, September 26, 2006

can't zz lately

lately.. tak boleh ZZ.. mm, weird~.. too happening kut~..

Bought a book.. "Train your Abs in 30days".. hahaha, last nite started my 1st day.. :D

26 SEPT -- 26 OCT.. tapi in the middle... there's this Nepal Mission Trip eh.. mm~.. See lar if i can get my abs trained... kekekee~

:D overall....... kekeekkekekekekekekkekek~~~~~~
Joyful~~~.. eeekkekekekekekkekekekkekekek~~~

Monday, September 25, 2006

2nd step

yeah.. Sept 26, 2006..
mm.. i am on my 2nd step ady.. feel way way better.. :D

kekeke~..
kekekeekkeeekekke~

Hope will continue to recover soon.. :D

Sunday, September 24, 2006

mm..

it seems that my blog been full of words..and no picture..
let me post some picture la.. kekekeke

Since i get the new laptop.. been deleting all picture from my laptop..
So let's see..

Ha~ long time ago photo.. Mayang and i.. This guy ler.. is my good friend at work.. when his face kena bullied by me.. his reaction is cool to look at.. hahaa..~

This is another old old friend of mine.. i joined Navy and he also joined Navy... kekeke~ Young time friend... :D

Yeah~

Time

Yupe.. Been reading the Rick Warren.. Purpose Driven life lately once again..

And ya.. somehow.. i felt.. It's true that.. In your life..
You have money, materials.. a lot..
But everybody is given only 24 hours a day.. no more, no less..

And you decide how u want to use your 24 hours given to you..
And to some of your friends, you treasure them and you decided to give them your time.. Your precious time which you will not gain it in anyway, anyhow..

I really hope i can make use of my time for the people i love..
my parents, my family, my relatives, my friends... :)

Be blessed, everyone.....

Friday, September 22, 2006

Good Bye...... My Lover

Today.. Sept 22, 2006.. 9 months+ after my break up..
Many things taken place...

But..
I have decided..

TO LET GO of this man in my life.............

Good Bye..~ God has a different path for us now...... We shall meet in Heaven.. :D
Treasure your time, Search for His purpose.. And Take Care~

:D

1st Step is always hard..

mm.. so, lepas my sharing section last nite.. we prayed before we shared and of course we ended with prayers.. :D

wow.. not sure is this something from the Lord?

Just as i was grieving over the past again... wondering.. Yes/ No.. Go/ Stay... $#%#$%#$%.. decision..decision.......

oops........ some "signal" appear... n reaffirm me......... keke..
so anticipate for my new direction............... :D
New beginning..........

Again.. self speaking..
It might be hurts.. it might be road blocks.. you might fall ... but... you have to move on.. keep moving.. and moving.. don't give up............ :D Because, when you fall, He is there... When you stumble, He is there....... When you have no where to go, He is there guiding you..... Wonderful, isn't it?.. Look forward..... :D

Got this from a dear friend..

Don't date because you are desperate.

Don't marry because you are miserable.

Don't have kids because you think your genes are superior.

Don't philander because you think you are irresistible.



Don't associate with people you can't trust.

Don't cheat. Don't lie. Don't pretend.

Don't dictate because you are smarter.

Don't demand because you are stronger.



Don't sleep around because you think you are old enough & know better.

Don't hurt your kids because loving them is harder.

Don't sell yourself, your family, or your ideals.

Don't stagnate!


Don't regress.

Don't live in the past. Time can't bring anything or anyone back.

Don't put your life on hold for possibly Mr. Right.

Don't throw your life away on absolutely Mr. Wrong because your Biological clock is ticking


Learn a new skill.

Find a new friend.

Start a new career.

Sometimes, there is no race to be won, only a price to be paid for some of life's more hasty decisions.


To terminate your loneliness, reach out to the homeless.

To feed your nurturing instincts, care for the needy.

To fulfill your parenting fantasies, get a puppy.

Don't bring another life into this world for all the wrong reasons.


To make yourself happy, pursue your passions & be the best of what you can be.

Simplify your life. Take away the clutter.

Get rid of destructive elements: abusive friends, nasty habits, and dangerous liaisons.
Don't abandon your responsibilities but don't overdose on duty.

Don't live life recklessly without thought and feeling for your family.

Be true to yourself.

Don't commit when you are not ready.

Don't keep others waiting needlessly.


Go on that trip. Don't postpone it.

Say those words. Don't let the moment pass.

Do what you have to, even at society's scorn.


Write poetry.

Love Deeply.

Walk barefoot.

Dance with wild abandon.

Cry at the movies.


Take care of yourself. Don't wait for someone to take care of you.

You light up your life.

You drive yourself to your destination.

No one completes you - except YOU.


It isn't true that life does not get easier with age.

It only gets more challenging.

Don't be afraid. Don't lose your capacity to love.

Pursue your passions.


Live your dreams.

Don't lose faith in God.

Don't grow old. Just grow YOU!


When you give someone your time, you are giving them a portion of your life that you'll never get back.

Your time is your life. That is why the greatest gift you can give to

someone is your time.

Relationships take time and effort, and the best way to spell love is T-I-M-E because the essence of love is not what we think or do or provide for others, but how much we give of ourselves

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

something for thoughts

I asked for Strength.........And God gave me Difficulties to make me strong.

I asked for Wisdom.........And God gave me Problems to solve.

I asked for Prosperity.........And God gave me Brain and brawn to work.

I asked for Courage.........And God gave me Danger to overcome.

I asked for Love.........And God gave me Troubled people to help.

I asked for Favors.........And God gave me Opportunities.

I received nothing I wanted........I received everything I needed!

A new direction? A new place to belong? Will it helps?

Wrote a letter out finally.. sharing my decision.....

And one of them called me ..schedule for a face to face section.......
my decision is out... I decided to go..........

I wonder how the face to face going to be?

It's great to leave a place when it's no longer beneficial and yet.. haunting you all the time, right?

Justification...............

I really start to wonder.. Where are all my close friends when i need them the most??? ...........

Trying hard on my own?

been trying hard on my own on forgetting someone...... ya, someone dearest to me once upon a time...

List down all the reasons y should i forget him? done that.....
but.. err..

Use my brain to think.......analyze.. ? Done that..
But...err.....

Human heart... craving for a longing... ah....

Dunno what to say.. But i really hope i ll recover soon.......
:( Pretty bad..

I wonder, why a child don think so much.? But adult's thinking are complicated?
Perhaps it's due to the many experiecens and hurts that we faced.. accumulating in our memory? that we have learn to be courteous... to beware before pouring out our hearts to anyone??... Hurts create fear... fear creates resistance. resistance stopped openess.... ah!

What is happening?...

Sometimes i really wonder.. Where is the passion that once you shared? The passion that you thought it will never fades....... disappointed....

I gotta focus on big picture...... Trying hard on my own once again?

Once the Trust has been broken..

I ve came to learn that...

Once a trust is broken between you and another person... It's hard to return to the original form anymore..

I also come to learn that..
We can forgive a person.. But to learn to trust that person once again.. It really need to take a lot of efforts and time.....

Perhaps, we need to really consider our action, before we even act it out?

Y am i in despair again and again???..............
..............

... I am weak....

ya.. i am weak..

many thing i have learned that it is out of my control...
my emotional swing..
my down time...
my past hurts come haunting me..
my future....
I felt hopeless..
I felt tiny...
It's all out of my control..

Stand up and fall down..
Up and fall..
Up and fall..........

I start to wonder... When will all these be over?

Friday, September 15, 2006

Don't ask...

hahaa... Today, i hang a teddy at my laptop bag..

wahahahhaa......

:D

Don't ask y............

Thursday, September 14, 2006

Today i feel..

today.. i feel i am further n further from dating.... desperate?.. i think no..

The more i come to think seriously about "dating" and "marriage"...
The more burdened i felt.. Wah! Wat a heavy responsibility....

http://konkanicatholics.blogspot.com/2006/03/kuwait-roles-of-husband-and-wife-talk.html

This is a great site for knowing each other's roles......

wow.............
It really sounds to me that... though my responsibility is to help him to be someone God intend him to be... and his reponsbility is also helping me to become someone that God intend me to be...
I need to find someone that i can fullfilled my responsibility God assigned to me.....

wow.. Come to think of it........... It seems that...... no one really fits in already........ ~

Monday, September 11, 2006

Daniel 12:10

Finally, i finished the book of Daniel this morning.

And this scripture appear to me the most.

Daniel 12:10 Many will be purified, made spotless and refined, but the wicked will continue to be wicked. None of the wicked will understand, but those who are wise will understand.

mmm.. process of purification..........
mmm.. thressing floor like what Ruth gone through..
mmm......... I start to wonder... What is God trying to teach me?

:) My strength and My heart may failed, but God is the strength of my heart...

I really started to notice..whenever i am placed in a situation of no road to go anymore.. i can still look up and He will be found..... How wonderful it is. :)

Sunday, September 10, 2006

mm.. Altering my course....

mm.. Perhaps sometimes, it's great to just alter your course and heading towards another direction when the route that you used to walk, is no longer beneficial to you?

Route A: You are down.. always hits by emotion swing... Always affect by something in the past.. though sometimes happy but yet, most of the time, you are struggling to let go of something...

Route B: Begin a new route.. everything is new.... though uncertain, but yet, you can move in future with hope and joy.....

mm? I start to wonder........ in the beginning to Route B............... Am i making the right choice?

mmm....

Thursday, September 07, 2006

RM1200 won.....

This morning.... woke up.. macam tak dak tenaga.. done my sit up..30 times only.. wat??!!.... n carry some weights....

dooo.. doo.........it's FLY FM "wake up your brain" section....

Question..
What is the thing that on average, women do it 5 times a month and man do it 5 times a year??.......

many answer goes........ making love.. cutting toe nail, cleaning closet, shopping... etc etc......................

and..............

This morning.. a lovely lady called......... n she said..." CRYING?".....

BINGO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Unbelievable!!!!!!!!!! CRYING??!! So SIMPLE n yet this answer never cross my mind???...........

And i start thinking....... perhaps i am always surrounded by man who cry often............... ahhahahaa......... adui.............. ! May be i should widen up my male friends to more macho type huh??? kekekee.....

:D

up swing..

...... 20%.. recharge....
.... low batt.........
...... 20% recharge...
...low batt...... :~

:D a simple smile............. >>> 70% charged..lasted for 2 days........... goshhh..........

Thursday, August 31, 2006

:~

very down lately..

Hope can faster over come............

:(

Sunday, August 27, 2006

Reader Digest Subscription

mm, received letters from Citibank, asking me to participate in the RM200,000 competition.. hahaa.. and subscribe to RM148, 12 months copy of Reader Digest + 1 free copy.. + 1 watch and 1 backpack for outing... mm...

Been thinking of subscribing Reader Digest for long... and... wah.. Impulse.. i just follow the procedures tulis there... subscribe lor.. and.. ahem ahem... anticipating.. with prayer.... wah.. Dunno God want to allow me to win the Rm200K or not... wahahahaha....................... :D

Checking my accounts... adui....... my savings seems stagnant for long... monthly spending exceeds 3K ... somemore extra itu insuranse coming... also Nepal trip...... wah wah wah....... !!

Always i am having a budget of 1.8K monthly... ahem............. Guess, it's time for me to clear things up again?... Cut down other expenses like clothing?? mm.. Let's see how this month goes......... must start praying that God will guide me in spending wisely... ya...... :D

Sept upcoming big debt:
credit card ~3K
if only my expenses =1.8K.. wah.. still i gotta have 4.8K ler..... amboiii......

Nepal masih hutang 2K... amboiiiii..........

Start thinking... weekend, i must cook porridge with fried eggs already.... kekekee.....

And pray hard for the 200K thing... !! ahhaa... so, u all pray pray for me ah...... kekekekeke......

Thursday, August 24, 2006

Hot Hot Hot

with the many days of late night working..wah..Today, i am just completely worn out a bit........... hahahaa........... Tired.!.. grrrrrrrrrrrrr.......

Impatient!!!!......

GRRRRRRRRRRRrr............

No time to deal with aunty uncle...... ahhaa..

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

NAVY Style

ha.. navy friends sekalian...

wah.. i think i memang ah..inheritate the navy's style... in work...

Scolding my ma chai sekalian...
Y..? Y like this?/ Can you use your brain or not??
What??!! You dunno?? How long have you been working here??
grrrrrrrrrrrr.............

Some kept me geram.. But glad.. one has grown up quite well.. :D
1 still.. hahaa.. need more scolding..........
lagi satu..............adui........i pun dah nak pengsannnnnnnnn............. hahahahahaa..............

So my voices been like BOMB lately........ here and there.. i am shouting.........
amboiiii.......... A mother's heart... just want her children to be good..... right? ..

wahahhaa... Mother??/ oh...

Company Team building

So, Here's our company Team building photos.....

Wah..Niam's camera shots are simply awesomeeeee!!
And my panasonic FX9........ hahaha... how to compete with SLR...

Gonna ve a georgetown visit at 31 August ... yeah.. :D

photo that i snapped with Niam's camera..

our group photo.. keke

my ultimate team n opponents...

cantik nya.......

making bulatan....

ha..too much of photos........ enough la..

:D

Just to record down today.......
or should say yesterday...

;) some new info i knew...
but yet, it seems not really matter anymore?..

Let's see.......

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

What is behind all these?

Lately..been hearing many friends..kejap accident, kejap admitted hospital, kejap sakit, kejap wife pregnant, late delivery....... kejap relationship problem.. kejap husband run away with another women, kejap husband don't perduli her, kejap girlfriend separate with bf due to 3rd party, kejap the world bombing increase.. kejap the airport kena bomb.... seems like the world's problems are getting more and more........

mm.. i started to wonder.. What is behind all these? .. What is it that God is trying to tell us? bible said, everything happened, there's a good reason behind it, isn't it?....

Peseverance is hard... especially when you are in waiting stage.... with the surroundings full of sorrows and needs....... ah!..

Jeremiah33:3 'Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know.'

Prayer today:....
Father.. there are many needs around us... Help us..deliver us.......... I pray for blessings for all........... Help us... as we cried out to you...... Protects us from harm and danger.. indeed, it breaks your heart when the world you ve created, seems to mess up right now... but Lord, we know that you are STILL in control.... Have mercy on us, Lord. AMEN......

Monday, August 21, 2006

Passion in Work

mm, been wondering, Where is my passion of working as an engineer?

Passion.. When you have passion on something, you are going to do your very best in it.. you are going to sacrifice all because you want to do something, you are going to leave all behind and make time for it....... Passion.......

n here i am.. sometimes, dragging myself to work.... mm.. not knowing the direction to go.. Where is my passion in working?..

2nd chance..

mm.. someone told me.. if given him 2nd chance.. He gonna appreciate the thing he once decided to let go.......

mm.. started to wonder 2nd chance..?

If you were given 2nd chance to repeat your life.. what will you do?
Anything you regret doing?
Anything you wish it never happen before?
Anything you don't want it to repeat again?

all these...... make me recalled..someone told me "The Click" is something like that..... mm.. life goes on.. time flies...... this is what i know... i thought it was early august..and next week gonna be end August, celebrating Merdeka already.... wow wow..........

Also 8 months i separated with someone already...... wah wah......

mm.. 2nd chance.. i started to wonder?.. .. Yeah. Great to know, God is in control. :)

My 1st baking..

ha.. seems very long time never update blog.. wanted to but..too tied up with Team Building...at bukit merah.. Thursday n Friday. Then Saturday was busy bringing kids out.. haha.. So, Yeah.. Sunday!.. Manage to make my 1st Oat cookies.. then 2nd.. Raisin cookies.. (actually suppose to make Spinach one..tapi.. tak tau spinach mana satu..wahahahhahaha).. then 3rd is snow ball... ha..

ehem... bought a new electric mixer from Tesco.. ~Rm34..

FInally all mixed..... Oat Cookies..

yeah.. this is the Oat Cookies.. in my NEWLY BOUGHT oven... :D

wah... become bigger..wah.. nice nice.. excited..!!

Ding.. Ding...!!!.. That's my Oven's calling me.....
Final Product..haahahh So happyyyyyy..

Compare to my recipe.. ee..ada macam, isn't it??.. but why my cookies soft soft punya...........hahahaaaa...

NEXT... Raisin punya......

everybody seems to love this the most.....

Next..... 3rd one.. SNOW Ball.... hahahaa...... Funny lorrr.. 1st time i know egg white when beat with electric mixer...so fast become fluffy..(correct spelling ke..) hahaa..
..snowball in oven....

hahaa........ looks ugly..... and then hor..everybody seems to hate this the most............

End of my baking story... kekkekeke....