Saturday, May 31, 2008

Nice book

Borrowed a book (Prayer is invading the impossible--jack w hayford) from PCC last night. mm, run through the first 2 chapters.. rather interesting..

A glance of the book...........

Business shipwrecked on rocks of ecomonic reversals.
Marriages with the love wrung out of them, and society asserting that divorce is the answer.
Medical reports silently screaming "Cancer".
Children exploding into unpredictable behavior patterns.
Bills towering above an overdrawn checkbook.
Jobs disappearing and unemployment offering a way to nowhere.
Long-term hope dissolved.
Constant pain from a physical problem that knows no reprieve.
Recurring frustration with a personal deficiency that can't be overcome.
Blockades on the highway to happiness.
Wondering what to do next.
Having tried anything and everyone.
Futility.
Face-to-Face with impossiblity-- or what seems like it.

Everybody comes here at some time. Some more frequently than others. Faith dims for all except the most rock-like saint. And at this point you are ready for an answer....

Ready, because you are desperate.
Ready, because you have tried everything else.
Ready, because your attention has been gained.
Ready, because there's actually nothing else you can do. At this point, you are ready to pray.

Pray?
Ready to Pray?

As an escape from reality?
As a flight into some kind of guesswork?
As an emotional release that doesn't change anything?
As a blind shot at hope with no idea where the target is?
NO.
But ready to pray truly.

To pray as an entrance into reality.
To pray as a trip with predestined certainity.
To pray as an experience of intelligently based peace.
To pray with the knowledge you are on target everytime.

The impossible faces us all.
It storms, fume, looms before us, stalks our days, presses upon our minds, bends our plans, stands formidably across our future, pierces our present, reaches out from our past.

but there's a way to face impossiblity.
Invade it!
Not with a glib speech of high hopes.
Not in anger.
Not with resignation.
Not through stoical self-control.
But with violence.
And prayer provides the vehicle for this kind of violence.

mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm....... interesting, isn't it?
it did caught my attention to further reading..........

God.
Church.
Bible.
Jesus.
Prayer.

Most guess about the first,
get disguested with the second,
can't understand the third,
use the fourth to swear,
and then....
However ineffectively or imperfectly,
we all try the last one.

mmmm........... haha, i really enjoy this book... heehhe~~... will continue to read further on............

Friday, May 30, 2008

The function of heart?

You ever wonder, what's the function of your heart?
According to this site: http://www.sads.org.uk/heart_function.htm
The heart is a specialised muscle that contracts regularly and continuously, pumping blood to the body and the lungs. The pumping action is caused by a flow of electricity through the heart that repeats itself in a cycle. If this electrical activity is disrupted - for example by a disturbance in the heart's rhythm known as an 'arrhythmia' - it can affect the heart's ability to pump properly.

mmm.. and this morning.. when i was reading Mark 7... I was reminded of another function of the heart...
Mark 17: 18 So He said to them, “Are you thus without understanding also? Do you not perceive that whatever enters a man from outside cannot defile him, 19 because it does not enter his heart but his stomach, and is eliminated, thus purifying all foods?”[g] 20 And He said, “What comes out of a man, that defiles a man. 21 For from within, out of the heart of men, proceed evil thoughts, adulteries, fornications, murders, 22 thefts, covetousness, wickedness, deceit, lewdness, an evil eye, blasphemy, pride, foolishness. 23 All these evil things come from within and defile a man.”

No wonder it is stressed in proverbs...
"Above all else, guard your heart for it is the wellspring of life. Let your eyes look straight ahead; fix your gaze directly before you. Make level paths for your feet and take only ways that are firm. Do not swerve to the right or the left; keep your foot from evil." - Proverbs 4:23-27

:) Guard your heart.... beware.... for it is not only another muscle... but, it is the wellspring of life.... do not let it be polluted... :)

Thursday, May 29, 2008

how come i felt like so mannyyyyy thingsssss....

$#%$#% come to work...so manyyyyyyyyyyyy items...................... :(
back home... so manyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy items....

#@$#@$... start to feel a bit..cannot handle.. :(
then the camping lar, cooking lar... walow.................

may be i should just let go all, take a bag and go far far lar..hahaa..

found out also 1 thing, when u have a BIG dream, beware of who u share the dream with.......
ppl like to pour cold water to you..... and kill ur dream........
but.......... PASSION stands FOREVER!!
and of course HIS BLESSINGSSS.........

I am GREATLY blessed!!!
DEEPLY loved!!
HIGHLY Favoured!!
AMen~~

Anticipate to see how this month goessss... and the coming June~~~
i need to pick up on my outside DREAM... hahahaa....

Read through Malachi many times last night...
Malachi 2:
13 Another thing you do: You flood the LORD's altar with tears. You weep and wail because he no longer looks with favor on your offerings or accepts them with pleasure from your hands. 14 You ask, "Why?" It is because the LORD is the witness between you and the wife of your youth. You have been unfaithful to her, though she is your partner, the wife of your marriage covenant.
15 Has not the LORD made the two of you one? You belong to him in body and spirit. And why has he made you one? Because he was seeking godly offspring. [d] So be on your guard, and do not be unfaithful to the wife of your youth.
16 "I hate divorce," says the LORD God of Israel, "and I hate it when people clothe themselves with injustice," says the LORD Almighty. So be on your guard, and do not be unfaithful.

Malachi 3:
Breaking Covenant by Withholding Tithes
6 "I the LORD do not change. So you, the descendants of Jacob, are not destroyed. 7 Ever since the time of your ancestors you have turned away from my decrees and have not kept them. Return to me, and I will return to you," says the LORD Almighty. "But you ask, 'How are we to return?'
8 "Will a mere mortal rob God? Yet you rob me. "But you ask, 'How are we robbing you?' "In tithes and offerings. 9 You are under a curse—your whole nation—because you are robbing me. 10 Bring the whole tithe into the storehouse, that there may be food in my house. Test me in this," says the LORD Almighty, "and see if I will not throw open the floodgates of heaven and pour out so much blessing that there will not be room enough to store it. 11 I will prevent pests from devouring your crops, and the vines in your fields will not drop their fruit before it is ripe," says the LORD Almighty. 12 "Then all the nations will call you blessed, for yours will be a delightful land," says the LORD Almighty.


Should i Test him????????????????

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

April 2009 Nepal Base Camp Hike..


wahseh........... this is really something................. aiseh aiseh...........
y lar when my finance is negative..all these things start coming????

So there's an email from my old nepal mission trip friend....asking me.

"hey.. do you want to join us to hike the base camp coming april 2009??"

i would love to lerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr................................
Let's see... haha, so many prayer items ady~~

Coleman Tent


so my hiking kaki..siew n eric asked me to get Coleman tent instead of those tesco/giant cheap tent.........wahseh..in the midst of my financial "negative"... haha, i still search for the tent.....

so cool..!!
usual price is RM299...and he told me he get his for RM99??? wah.............
i also want to get 1 cheap like that la... heehhehehehehe..cheap + good one................
dunno if i pray this can or not horrrr...

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

in the midst

in the midst of my financial "crisis"... i still can...

1.) appoint 1 CFO from my working group to collect money from team members for activities organizing....
2.) manages those field ppl.... (super fan lorr... a bit impatient ady)
3.) become $$controller for the activities i organized outside...(walow..troublesome also..but got lesson learn..hahaha..)

all about $$$$ eh.................... mmmmm~~~

must become $$$ magnet ady..radiate the freq out............................

mi..mo...mi ...mo................................ ding ding ding....................

$$$ hitting min...

Since april to be exacts... my account been shrinking drastically..almost hitting RM6....

1.) Housing loan payment... (my goal is to clear all by 5 years.. hahaa.. now, not even 1 month ahead.. )
2.) Housing deposits, stove, my bed..... $$$$$$$ walow
3.) Income tax payment... walow.. i earned so much meh??
4.) Insurance fees yearly payment... april, may, july..... walowwww....

these 4 major things are burning my account................................

not even mentioned about..
1.) Housing basic renovation-- estimate to be 30k
2.) House title transfer fee-- estimate to be 4k
3.) coming july insurance payment... $$$$
4.) housing loan continue payment....

walow.................................. :S
Must pray for BIG increment/income ady~~~ Amen first... hehehehe~

Sunday, May 25, 2008

bye bye dom n jen...

wah..so we had a farewell for dom n jen coz they going to UK... sob sob............. working holiday visa...

lose such wonderful friends...
friends to..
share things..
crack jokes..
support...
hiking..
camping..
church"ing"...
cooking..
eating....
partying...
blogging...

sob sob............................................................. hope they faster come back.... hehehe~

OATS

since the last "sinful" weekend on bbq.. today i decided to eat oats for lunch lar...

a bit gerli lorr the smell... :( due to fitness sake... have to persevere...sob sob....
a bo ppl complaint say i fat liao.. aiseh.... sob sob........

i could not believe the whole sunday...
i woke up at 1pm..drink water.. then continue zz til 7pm jump out from bed...
n then....zz again at 12pm+ ??? walow~~~~~

err

wahseh... keep kena bugged by ppl....ask me this that...

$#%$#%#$%.. a bit beh dong lorrrrr.................
very beh dong ppl keep ngam ngam me one................. #$%#$$#%

Saw the forwarded slide on china earthquake again.. life seems fragile.. but ya, still need to go on..
read through the book of revelation over weekends... can't imagine if those things took place ..especially the those 1/3 ppl died... 1/3 ocean turned into blood.... if really 1/3 like this.. i wonder those china earthquake must be really small case?

scary...

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Narnia- Prince Casbian


So i watched Narnia just now.. :D
wah.. falling in love with Prince Casbian.. hahaha....~
So cool... wah, u should watch the way he speaks.... ~~ ***screammmm...*****
How old ady, dear? .. hhahaha..

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Spiritually Dry...

I been feeling spiritually dry lately................

I used to:
1.) woke up every morning, sing praise and worship, then pray for all my prayer items (friends, family, myself)
2.) stand at the balcony pray for salvation of people..and also revival for penang
3.) pray for government to be wise
4.) Then i read the bible and meditate and write down what God told me in the morning..

But now:
1.) i seldom sing praise before prayer
2.) i mostly pray for my own items....
3.) i read the bible and just make a tick on the bible reading plan box

errrr.......... Then i started to sing to Him again this morning................. prepare my heart before reading His words.... but.............. still.. :( Don't feel that i heard anything from the bible this morning.............. errr??? I need to be connected to HIm once again............

So i hope the prayer and fasting this week will stir up my sensitivity towards His heart once again........

Proverbs 8:17 I love those who love me; and Those who diligently seek me will find me.

Disaster Apathetic?

For 2 continuous week, i have been selected to pray for those disaster that hits Myanmar, China, as well as Xenophobia in South Africa (http://www.news24.com/News24/South_Africa/News/0,,2-7-1442_2324568,00.html)

As my prayers go, i said to God..
"God, help us, open our eyes that we may see the things you want us to see.. with the many things going on, we believe there's something good out of all these... Lord, we felt helpless... beside giving money and praying, what else we can do? Show us what else that you want us to do?"

I really felt that way.. i felt helpless.. i felt i have somehow become apathetic towards the world's disaster.. i am feeling out of control.... i am starting to tell myself.."well, disasters happen everyday,.. many human died everyday... what can i do?.. i can do nothing..."

Am i disaster-apathetic? or am i simply feeling helplesss...........................

Honesty

been asking myself... "wah.. u need to be so honest or not?"

Found myself always saying things in my mind without filtering..
not sure if this honesty is good in a relationship?
i think i used to value relationship with honesty......... but somehow somewat.. still failed miserably... :( leave an impact in me too...

dunno Y also lately been having some heartache..................
walow.... confused........... may be the past come haunting again.. hahaa..
star said.."rebuke rebuke".. hahaa..cute lar that sentence..

:~ grrr.....

Today Mood= 3/10

walow..cannot believe i am so blue today............
plan the coming camping stuffs..finally..after so many emails..finally come a conclusion.. arr..
it actually make me miss my camping gang more n more...........
especially the Tahan Gang.. ahaha, cause other ppl take care me ma.. hehehee..

been bothered by some issues lately.. :( so decided to fast n pray a bit... see got answer or not...

think some ppl fall short of my expectation too.. am i expect too much?
or they simply fall short of my expectation? :( not quite happy of it too..

work.. endless work..

arrrr............. again, i just feel like getting my bag and tour around the world.............. run away from issues.. heeheheheh~~ Let's see how the week goes lar.......... think with the weekend coming.. it should be good.. especially the sat 12am thingy.. hahaaa....

Let's press on for a better tomorrow.. yeah~~

Monday, May 19, 2008

Bkt Hijau






















A very nice back-to-nature place.... smell the jungle... pass through the padi field on the way driving there... very nice mountain view... mmm......... sometimes, i really think that i want to carry a bag and tour around the world.............. back to nature type of trip.. :)
See if this weekend camping can jadi or not.. :D I miss camping..........






New House

the street.... clean and nice....
so..here's my new house.. hehehe.. :)

MGC Outing


ha...did not bring camera.. had a nice outing..
going out with 14 kids.... hahaha.. suddenly... think, have to reevaluate of having 4 kids..
keep hearing.."mummy..mummy..mummy" whole day............
"mummy.. u look at him............"
"mummy, i want this......"
"mummy.............."
then having the parents cerita to me about how to take care of their children..
clean up their poo..poo..eerrrr..
suck out their mucus.... WALOW................
how could they tell me.. it's just like eating balitung................. slimy also ma.same.. WALOWWWWW...........
Think i am having culture shock........ sure i want to have 4 kids? mummy......... alamak..

err..

have this headache.. :(

so i went out and get panadol after failure to search for any at home............

and the guy asked... so which panadol you want?

and i said..normal one.. and then.. i took a look at the rack.. eee..panadol active fast?
how fast it is?.. as curiosity hits.. so i get panadol normal... panadol activefast....

mmm..so how fast it is??...

been 5mins i ate... eee........ still a bit headache......... i thought the advertisement said 2 mins?????

seems the world is making us impatient...............

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

戰士哭跪: 求求你們讓我再救一個

2008-5-14


【大公網訊】作者:南派三叔
剛剛接通了一位採訪過我的四川記者朋友的電話,她剛剛從綿竹退下來,這個嬌小的丫頭在電話里和我講了她眼見的情況,她只用了四個字形容,就是:「世界末日。」
她說她幾乎無法工作,眼淚就沒有停過,太慘了,一片一片的廢墟,到處是哭喊的聲音,救援隊發了瘋一樣的救人,然而往往救不了,跟著去的攝影只了拍一張照片,就扔下相機去幫忙,因爲那情景讓你不可能站著看著。
她和我說,她在一個學校現場看到了她永遠不會忘記的一幕,學校的主教學樓坍塌了大半,當時正在上課,幾乎有100多個孩子被壓在了下面。全是小學生。一些似乎是消防隊員的戰士在廢墟中已經搶出了十幾個孩子和三十多具屍體,看著那些小小的,帶著紅領巾卻再也無法睜開眼睛的孩子,她說她突然覺得自己說話的勇氣都沒有了。
然而就在搶救到最關鍵的時候,突然教學樓的廢墟因爲餘震和機吊操作發生了移動,隨時有可能發生再次坍塌,再進入廢墟救援十分的危險,幾乎等於送死,當時的消防指揮下了死命令,讓鑽入廢墟的人馬上撤出來,要等到坍塌穩定後再進入,然而此時,幾個剛才廢墟出來的戰士大叫又發現了孩子。
幾個戰士聽見了就不管了,轉頭又要往里鑽,這時坍塌就發生了,一塊巨大的混凝土塊眼看就在往下陷,那幾個往里轉的戰士馬上給其他的戰士死死拖住,兩幫人在上面拉扯,最後廢墟上的戰士們被人拖到了安全地帶,一個剛從廢墟中帶出了一個孩子的戰士就跪了下來大哭,對拖著他的人說你們讓我再去救一個,求求你們讓我再去救一個!我還能再救一個!
看到這個情形所有人都哭了,然而所有人都無計可施,只眼睜睜的看著廢墟第二次坍塌。後來,那幾個小孩子還是給挖出來了,但是卻只有一個還活著,看著那些個年輕的戰士抱著那個幸存的小女孩在雨中大叫著跑向救援所在的帳篷的時候,她已經泣不成聲。
我無法想象這在電話中已經如此驚心動魄的情形在當時是怎麼樣一個悲壯的場面,我只知道這是真實的,而且,在現在,在震中地區,這樣的事情還在重復的發生著,就在今夜,我坐在舒適的房間內,第一次意識到我是否應該做些什麼,雖然我不可能到現場去,但是我是否應該做一些力所能及的事情?
於是我眼含著眼淚,首先發了這一篇博文,我知道這篇博文無法帶來什麼實際的幫助,但是,這是我想到的最便捷的,我所能立即做到的第一件事情,一篇文雖然沒有力量,但是至少我可以讓更多的人關注這件事情。只有完成了第一件事情,才有第二件,第三件。
天佑中國,人間有愛。朋友們,無論你們身邊有任何的條件,只要是能幫助災區的,希望我們都馬上付之行動,莫以善小而不爲,一篇文章,一元捐款,都是一種支援, 2008注定是榮耀與災難交輝的一年,災難的是中國人的土地,榮耀的是中國人的心。
中華網14日

Saturday, May 10, 2008

finally..

been under high pressures lately..be it at work dealing with 7 engineers.. dealing with boss.... handling customer issues.. stop ships... factory issues..........engineer issues.........

on the other hand....... my housing stuff is also putting a very high burden on me.......renovation..budgeting.. furnitures.. housing loan payment... housing electric and water application..etc etc...

not even to mention other area of my life..such as dreams, mission to do..vietnam outreach......

Finally, i break down in tears tonight......... Just do it, dear. 1 by 1, ok? Be strong and courageous. :)

Wednesday, May 07, 2008

Up at 3am

I am up at 3am, wednesday night.. or should i say , thursday early morning? 8 May 2008.

1. Chating with KE who is currently transiting at JFK airport, flying back to malaysia. Estimate to arrive friday morning. Yeah!! :D Find myself missing him.

2. Replying company emails on many issues here and there... checking if i sounded too harsh in email.. listing down to-do for tomorrow..

3.Finished 2 con calls.. lesson learned= please do homework before talking to higher management. Do good engineering judgement and make a rough decision.

4.Reviewed my 2008 resolutions and see how far i go, what did i already achieved and can closed.. which is less priority and can be abort, which is lagging and need attention, what action plan needed.. prayers... May 08 now. almost 50% of 2008 gone.

5. listening to praise106.5 christian broadcast.

Question KE disccussed with me.."what is life all about?"..
"it's about action...putting what we learn into practice and learn from it.. yeah! i agreed!!"

Been a fruitful and busy workweek... :) Hope to have a great vietnam gathering tomorrow(today i supposed..hhaa) in church. Amen!

Inadequacy= opportunities

Been seeing different type of people lately that inspires me a lot...

1.) Sri Lanka IWS holding Founder, Mr Authur
http://www.iwsholdings.com/about-iws.html
Take a look at the diversity of his company.. huge!! I am impressed!!!

2.) Indonesia Esperindo founder, Mr Budiman+ Mr Sutanto
Running 4 branches and expanding... setting up base stations for motorola

3.) 1 of my close friend.. actually setting up his own company.. :) A very smart friend of mine.

4.) 1 of my close friend too.. running an online business
http://www.skybees.com.my/

And i mentioned.. "i would want to have my own business by 35 years old too"
and he asked me.."what type of business............."

:) We will see............. Press On... Started to pray seriously about this, this morning. There my 1st billion is coming.............. Yeah~ amen!

Delegation+ Cooperation--Letters of a Businessman to his Daughter

One of the book i am reading lately.. and last night, a chapter in the book inspired me. :)

Chapter 16: Delegation + Cooperation
分工合作

The letter started with the businessman was concerned of his daughter(a manager in a dept) working late lately trying to complete a customer analysis report. And he mentioned that to complete such an important reports, 5 keys areas to be taken care of:
1.) list the overall agenda, indicating what do you wish to reveal in the report
2.) examine and choose the right information to be presented
3.) gather the accurate information
4.) analyze the collected information, use a very clear way to present
5.) the presented information should clearly point back to the agenda

And then it followed by the assumption of Mr businessman towards his daughter's reaction.. where he thought she would respond by saying.." i know all of these dad... ".. But Mr businessman emphasize that.. to be a successfull and high efficiency manager, to work hard to prepare such report, is not much helping at all. (now, this is the key turning point).

Mr businessman air his concern about looking at his daughter working hard each day. And when he asked her, she mentioned that.."do it myself independently and this is always faster than asking others to help..may be 3 times faster, dad".. Mr B replied.."this might be true.. however, there's some obstacles in this thinking."

"If you do not, at some level, allocate time to train up the resources how to do it, after 10 years, it will still be you 'yourself' ,'independently' doing the same type of job."

"there have been many people asked me, why do i running so many big companies at the same time and yet, i have time to spend a few months in a year to pursue my own personal interest in flying and enjoying the nature.. and my answer is.. because i have high efficiency workers to help me taking care of the daily business operation."

and.. Mr B estimate the reply of his daughter would be something like this.."ya dad.. this is easy..."

He continued, " yes, this is indeed easy. However, you would be surprised to discover that, the amount of people willing to allocate such time to train subordinates, so that job delegation can be done.. is rather few.."

"i always do not understand, why there are such an amount of managers who are unwilling to delegate the jobs and let his subordinates give a try, not enough of trust? or... simply stupidity? or.. worry that his subordinates might outperform him?"

"not much managers come and tell me.. the reason why he delegate his job to the particular subordinate is because he thinks that that person can do better job compared to him...i would have admire such manager"

"Being a manager is like building a pyramid. you are the top of the pyramid.. and you need a strong foundation.. and that is your resources, your people.. it is really depends on how you pick the right resources, right people, encourages, motivates, delegating jobs, monitoring... that strengthen the foundation.. and.. that is what you(as manager) has been paid to do."

Always continue building your pyramid.. ensuring good foundation. :)

A good sharing i thought.

Tuesday, May 06, 2008

Crown Trigger Fish

o I am falling in love with this crown trigger fish during my last Sipadan Dive.
Look at it......... vivid color, nice looking fish... and of course.. FIErce!! :D

Beware.. If you do not know what a trigger fish is........... most likely, you are not a DIVER>.. hahaha~~ Trigger fish bites corals... it can bite your skull!! :D beware.

Saw this in Aquarium last weekend............ RM34 i think.. around 6cm big only.. :( hahaa.. the one i saw in Sipadan.. i think it was 40-50cm length... heehhe~

Sunday, May 04, 2008

Fighter Jet

A passion for the fighter jet.. Isn't this photo awesome??

Friday, May 02, 2008

This is something!




Now..this is something!!!!
basket.. hahahaa................ LK scold me for many foul language i used lately...........
so cool he got me 2 chat chai.. love u..muaks~