好气

跟某人说话，只觉得好气。。

使自己觉得自己太厉害了吗？
还是一时的情绪不稳定？

有时，好想放弃了。。。
有时，却又觉得真的要这样吗？
为何自己的情绪总是不稳定？

好不喜欢别人对我说。。 我不能够。。。
不尝试，就是100%不能呀！
至少试了，在下另一个决定吧。。。
至少说出来。。解决呀。。

为何放弃了呢？

加油吧。。加把干劲！！！
别气了。。 要一直坚持。。。 一直学习。。。 直到把路程走完吧！

Relationship

i seriously think that relationship will be easy at first...
and i think that once you pray and ask God for the right one....
things are going to flow accordingly...........

but i guess, today, i REALIZED... it is NOT.

I dunno how to describe this.. but... the thought of relationship i have in mind were...
1.) 2 person liking each other and agree to be together
2.) they are commited to work things out together...
3.) they enjoy doing things together and have common interest
4.) they work out their differences and learn from each others
5.) they supported each other in most of the life matters/issues.. and they prayed together

and.. TODAY.. i am having issue dealing with the..DIFFERENCES... DISAPPOINTMENTS... EMOTIONAL SUPPORTS....

Ar.... that's y..............come to look at the verse again..........walow............. many WORK need to be done............ perseverance..... hahahahaa........

1 corinthians 13: 4Love is PATIENT, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not EASILY ANGERED, it KEEPS NO RECORDS OF WRONG. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, ALWAYS HOPE, ALWAYS PERSEVERE.

:(

i was pissed of with someone last nite...
just does not seems to know any of my emotion.. :(
and at the end......... i just switch my brain to OFF on that matter n go to ZZ...
i was telling myself and praying....release.... then yeah.. get to zzz.... hahaa..
dunno Y the stomach upset... been toilet 4 times... ish..
( i just felt that i am avoiding the issue....... )

and today... during the design review............. haiz....
i feedback to them that, they need to take care of this that...due to some customer issues seen outside..customer impacts.... then parts variation issue..... that will affect the quality next time...
but nobody seems to take note.........
i guess they are pretty stressed up.............. :(

And here i am.. completely disappointed with the big guy............. :(
What is he trying to tell the team??
"good work.......??!"
"guys, we want to compete with other team, and this is reality, who win the race first...."
"guys, go find out watever info you can from the other team.."
???? what concept is this???
i sometimes, i guess i am TOTALLY LOST in the matter of these..............
What concept are we teaching the engineers????
Aren't we emphasize in 49 characters??
Responsibility?? Virtue??? Humility?? Discernment???

I just completely LOST and pissed off....................
totally....................................... :(

no where to turn to.....
no one to talk to...........
everybody has their own problems... (realize this more and more..)

and 1 thing for SURE.............. DO NOT EXPECT ANYTHING from SOMEONE ELSE... NEVER!!!
Just do what you need to do...
Help those u think u need to help...
be succeed anyway.......
Don't put your life on hold because of someone...
Live Life to the FULLEST!....

Arm Wrestling Competition?!

hahahaa........saw the company promoting this competition...
they need 8 women to register.... for coming GYM opening......

so, i ajak my female engineer to register also lo.. hahaha......

See can win or not?
first prize not much lar... RM70.. but also ok lar hor.. ahhaa, if win, can go eat sakae.. yeah...!!!

pray pray...

Si mayang's house...

after reno.. haahhaa, nice also lar hor??
creative curtain.. ahhahahahaa
hahaha, table...also want to take
3 good friends............. wah, miss the old time...............

2 of my old friends..

Meeting up with them was really nice... talk a lot of old stories..remind me of many old memories.. hahaha... 1 from university time.. 1 from motorola time.. so much up and down we been through... :) mmm........

haha, we doing the same hand sign.. for both carss.... ahahahaa

naughty girl

jalan jalan in IKEA met this naughty girl.. hahaha.. miss her a lot lorrrr..... she not around, seems like missing a bit of fun.. ahhaa

i like this type of room

nice room.... so cool......... i especially love the basket ball net.. hahaha~ so nice...

Cute LadyBird.. hahhahahaha

baby venessa keeps me happy for daysss... hahahhahahaha..............
so CUTEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jogoya, Star Hill.. :D

**drinking..drinking......only me lar.... hahahaa..geoff not drinking..

*office wear....hahahaa... beh dong..so formal............ table full of stuffs...

nah leng chai geoff..

wah, the experience of jogoya was.........awesome!!!!!!!!!!

so much food..........

only eating those that i like i ady full............

sashimi... a lot!!!

fresh oyster..a lot!!

temaki..--> i like but no perut to fill..

steam crab, prawn, etc..

tempura-> eat a bit...no perut to fill..

desert..yeah!

fruits.. hahaa.. eat also

ice cream.. wow, black sesame was really nice!!

alcholic drink--> haha, drink 3 cups.. lucky not that strong...

grill-> no try..no perut to fill..

fried--> a lot........ no stomach to fill also..

diff mee--> no stomach to fill..

really a LOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTt!!!!

and it is ~RM100./ head......... long long time once it's OK lar.. hahaa..

sa pou kai fan

wah.. last nite went tesco shopping buy many stuffs for cooking...




Some item pending my list:
1.) cooking oats + raisin
2.) oat porridge + prawn + fried egg
3.) mash potato + sardin
4.) porridge + kacang
5.) sa pou kai fan..



yeah yeah..sa pou kai fan...... been thinking of making it since last week saw the TV program.. hahaa..

http://testfood.anyp.com/utestfood/19126-177121.aspx

let me try try see... hehee

walow depression

this morning woke up.................a sudden depression hit me....... :(

"adui.......going to work again."

hahaa.. apa larrrr....

double-minded... kena marah ady me today........ alamak...

A choice

I made a choice today.

I just pray that this would be the right choice.
Many people are going to tell me..............
"Why??!!"
"Have you consider this?? Have you consider that??"
"Is this wise?"
"arrr... you sure?"
"this gonna be hard.."

But, 1 thing i know.. As long as i uphold this unto His hand, He will guide me through.
That's how WONDERFUL is our God. :)

Love

No one falls in love by choice, it is by CHANCE.
No one stays in love by chance, it is by WORK.
And no one falls out of love by chance, it is by CHOICE

Bob

**picture..me, bob..mike p @trincomolee naval base

I guess i spend quite some time with bob and sometimes, he has become the person i turn to for any advises..both work and personal life.

"You gotta do something that challenge yourself!" bob mentioned.

:) mm, i am reminded about this today.

Hope he has a safe journey home today.

The Joker

The Joker ---the Dark Knight
-Wow, impressive.
-Manipulate human's mind
-Do things out of feeling......his only enjoyment is to "PLAY"..
-Daring
- To him, it just seems like nothing is important, human life, money, etc.. nothing........ but his objective is to "play" and "have fun"...

walow..somehow i felt i am becoming a bit like the joker liao at work...........
do things out of my feeling...
do watever i want..
errrr............danger danger........

Felt so LOST................................... zzzz............

some thoughts

Stayed up and chat with a friend last night before CG.. were discussing about, satisfaction in life.. achievement thus far, achievement in future.. viewing the success of others etc..

It caught me into thinking.

Then in the CG, the question " what is the past thing that God did in your life to make you know that you can trust him for your future?"

i sounded as there is none, perhaps i was really tired.
However, i knew deep in my heart that there are many....

From the early stage even before i accepted him...
He open door for me to come back to penang.
Even in the midst of job selection when i do not know how to decide, i prayed to get only 1 door open and He answered me.
Lead me to EPCC..
Lead me to take the step of faith in church camp and get baptised back in Aug 2004.
Lead me through my break up... sending many people to support me through..
Lead me to PCC..
Lead me to CYA3..
Lead me to indonesia trip, and even a small request as going up to Mt Bromo, He enabled it.
Lead me to Nepal mission trip, observe what a beautiful nation it is, and just as we ministered to the public through mimes, it just ministered to me as well.
And at the moment i feel tired of going to church and just prayed that someone there to invite me, He answered me.
Lead me in buying the house...
way too many...................

it just seems from little one to big one........ He is always faithful..
And why do i keep feeling upset and discontented?

I need to get myself reallign with Him once again......

Habakkuk 2
4 "See, he is puffed up; his desires are not upright—but the righteous will live by his faith
5 indeed, wine betrays him; he is arrogant and never at rest. Because he is as greedy as the grave and like death is never satisfied, he gathers to himself all the nations and takes captive all the peoples.
6 "Will not all of them taunt him with ridicule and scorn, saying, " 'Woe to him who piles up stolen goods and makes himself wealthy by extortion! How long must this go on?'

Tk's Baby

wah..fatherhood.......................

Navy Reunion

wah.... so nice... tk came to find me.. then.. KE came to find me.. and we pa pa lang went to find Har Har.. hahahaa...

and ngam ngam Har Har got new camera lor.. hehe..

Fu yo.........Model of the Year!

errrr

haa went KL and measure on the day come back... actually achieve 51.8KG.. hahaa..

but.. on my machine.. 53KG.. ish..

Been occupied with many things in my mind and really felt tired...........
1.) work direction
-found myself.. hard to continue at times... not much passion..perhaps due to repeatedly job and questions? (seems not also.... but i really dunno y........... )

2.) sales
-tired of thinking of sales target everyday... friend ask to join him for a business.. so much so i am seeing myself excelling there..but............ why is the first step so hard to take?

3.) housing
-the house is still there and yet to renovate... errr

room such a mess...
busy weekdays....
busy weekends.....

sometimes i just wonder............. when can i have a day of TOTAL rest arr?
Totally at peace ... mmm..