Time

"I care for you and I love you.. That's why i spend my TIME with you......."

24hours a day..no more no less.. and i am giving you a portion of my life. :)

:D

Wonderful when i think of this..
Don't expect.. But give more..
Don't demand.. But pray more..
Don't worry.. But have peace..
Don't stagnate..But move on.. :)

A statement

"hey.. guess u been thinking too much... relax..step by step la......."

:) A sudden revelation..

Questions

"hey..i want to ask u something..... R u dating with Mr XX?"

"huh??... no.........."

"y not??.. He is a great guy and both of you look matching.."

"huh??.......... merely good friend"

"y not consider him??...."

"huh??... don want la..... fren is good enough... :)"

:D

Great Hanging out..

Today.. hang out with my old flame.. secondary school.... :D

yeah.. Time change.. ppl change.. both grow older..and our experiences also reach another level of maturity.. :D

yeah.. A great hang out!!...

Wish we will have more hang out in the future to update each other once in a while~~.. :D

3 more weekends to go

Look at the calendar.. it seems it's only 3 more weekend to go for my nepal trip~~

Sept30-OCT 1= daddy birthday.. balik rumah~
Oct7-OCT8 = friend ajak me to hike Gunung Irau~ and eat mooncake at the top of mountain.. mm...should i go? should i not??.. decision again~~
OCT14-OCT15= this is part of my prayer n fasting week... ha~ also need to practise Drama for the trip...

Wah.. Then..
OCT19........................ !!!!!!........... I gonna Fly~~~~.....

Eagerly waiting.....!!!!

can't zz lately

lately.. tak boleh ZZ.. mm, weird~.. too happening kut~..

Bought a book.. "Train your Abs in 30days".. hahaha, last nite started my 1st day.. :D

26 SEPT -- 26 OCT.. tapi in the middle... there's this Nepal Mission Trip eh.. mm~.. See lar if i can get my abs trained... kekekee~

:D overall....... kekeekkekekekekekekkekek~~~~~~
Joyful~~~.. eeekkekekekekekkekekekkekekek~~~

2nd step

yeah.. Sept 26, 2006..
mm.. i am on my 2nd step ady.. feel way way better.. :D

kekeke~..
kekekeekkeeekekke~

Hope will continue to recover soon.. :D

mm..

it seems that my blog been full of words..and no picture..
let me post some picture la.. kekekeke

Since i get the new laptop.. been deleting all picture from my laptop..
So let's see..

Ha~ long time ago photo.. Mayang and i.. This guy ler.. is my good friend at work.. when his face kena bullied by me.. his reaction is cool to look at.. hahaa..~

This is another old old friend of mine.. i joined Navy and he also joined Navy... kekeke~ Young time friend... :D

Yeah~

Time

Yupe.. Been reading the Rick Warren.. Purpose Driven life lately once again..

And ya.. somehow.. i felt.. It's true that.. In your life..
You have money, materials.. a lot..
But everybody is given only 24 hours a day.. no more, no less..

And you decide how u want to use your 24 hours given to you..
And to some of your friends, you treasure them and you decided to give them your time.. Your precious time which you will not gain it in anyway, anyhow..

I really hope i can make use of my time for the people i love..
my parents, my family, my relatives, my friends... :)

Be blessed, everyone.....

Good Bye...... My Lover

Today.. Sept 22, 2006.. 9 months+ after my break up..
Many things taken place...

But..
I have decided..

TO LET GO of this man in my life.............

Good Bye..~ God has a different path for us now...... We shall meet in Heaven.. :D
Treasure your time, Search for His purpose.. And Take Care~

:D

1st Step is always hard..

mm.. so, lepas my sharing section last nite.. we prayed before we shared and of course we ended with prayers.. :D

wow.. not sure is this something from the Lord?

Just as i was grieving over the past again... wondering.. Yes/ No.. Go/ Stay... $#%#$%#$%.. decision..decision.......

oops........ some "signal" appear... n reaffirm me......... keke..
so anticipate for my new direction............... :D
New beginning..........

Again.. self speaking..
It might be hurts.. it might be road blocks.. you might fall ... but... you have to move on.. keep moving.. and moving.. don't give up............ :D Because, when you fall, He is there... When you stumble, He is there....... When you have no where to go, He is there guiding you..... Wonderful, isn't it?.. Look forward..... :D

Got this from a dear friend..

Don't date because you are desperate.

Don't marry because you are miserable.

Don't have kids because you think your genes are superior.

Don't philander because you think you are irresistible.



Don't associate with people you can't trust.

Don't cheat. Don't lie. Don't pretend.

Don't dictate because you are smarter.

Don't demand because you are stronger.



Don't sleep around because you think you are old enough & know better.

Don't hurt your kids because loving them is harder.

Don't sell yourself, your family, or your ideals.

Don't stagnate!


Don't regress.

Don't live in the past. Time can't bring anything or anyone back.

Don't put your life on hold for possibly Mr. Right.

Don't throw your life away on absolutely Mr. Wrong because your Biological clock is ticking


Learn a new skill.

Find a new friend.

Start a new career.

Sometimes, there is no race to be won, only a price to be paid for some of life's more hasty decisions.


To terminate your loneliness, reach out to the homeless.

To feed your nurturing instincts, care for the needy.

To fulfill your parenting fantasies, get a puppy.

Don't bring another life into this world for all the wrong reasons.


To make yourself happy, pursue your passions & be the best of what you can be.

Simplify your life. Take away the clutter.

Get rid of destructive elements: abusive friends, nasty habits, and dangerous liaisons.
Don't abandon your responsibilities but don't overdose on duty.

Don't live life recklessly without thought and feeling for your family.

Be true to yourself.

Don't commit when you are not ready.

Don't keep others waiting needlessly.


Go on that trip. Don't postpone it.

Say those words. Don't let the moment pass.

Do what you have to, even at society's scorn.


Write poetry.

Love Deeply.

Walk barefoot.

Dance with wild abandon.

Cry at the movies.


Take care of yourself. Don't wait for someone to take care of you.

You light up your life.

You drive yourself to your destination.

No one completes you - except YOU.


It isn't true that life does not get easier with age.

It only gets more challenging.

Don't be afraid. Don't lose your capacity to love.

Pursue your passions.


Live your dreams.

Don't lose faith in God.

Don't grow old. Just grow YOU!


When you give someone your time, you are giving them a portion of your life that you'll never get back.

Your time is your life. That is why the greatest gift you can give to

someone is your time.

Relationships take time and effort, and the best way to spell love is T-I-M-E because the essence of love is not what we think or do or provide for others, but how much we give of ourselves

something for thoughts

I asked for Strength.........And God gave me Difficulties to make me strong.

I asked for Wisdom.........And God gave me Problems to solve.

I asked for Prosperity.........And God gave me Brain and brawn to work.

I asked for Courage.........And God gave me Danger to overcome.

I asked for Love.........And God gave me Troubled people to help.

I asked for Favors.........And God gave me Opportunities.

I received nothing I wanted........I received everything I needed!

A new direction? A new place to belong? Will it helps?

Wrote a letter out finally.. sharing my decision.....

And one of them called me ..schedule for a face to face section.......
my decision is out... I decided to go..........

I wonder how the face to face going to be?

It's great to leave a place when it's no longer beneficial and yet.. haunting you all the time, right?

Justification...............

I really start to wonder.. Where are all my close friends when i need them the most??? ...........

Trying hard on my own?

been trying hard on my own on forgetting someone...... ya, someone dearest to me once upon a time...

List down all the reasons y should i forget him? done that.....
but.. err..

Use my brain to think.......analyze.. ? Done that..
But...err.....

Human heart... craving for a longing... ah....

Dunno what to say.. But i really hope i ll recover soon.......
:( Pretty bad..

I wonder, why a child don think so much.? But adult's thinking are complicated?
Perhaps it's due to the many experiecens and hurts that we faced.. accumulating in our memory? that we have learn to be courteous... to beware before pouring out our hearts to anyone??... Hurts create fear... fear creates resistance. resistance stopped openess.... ah!

What is happening?...

Sometimes i really wonder.. Where is the passion that once you shared? The passion that you thought it will never fades....... disappointed....

I gotta focus on big picture...... Trying hard on my own once again?

Once the Trust has been broken..

I ve came to learn that...

Once a trust is broken between you and another person... It's hard to return to the original form anymore..

I also come to learn that..
We can forgive a person.. But to learn to trust that person once again.. It really need to take a lot of efforts and time.....

Perhaps, we need to really consider our action, before we even act it out?

Y am i in despair again and again???..............
..............

... I am weak....

ya.. i am weak..

many thing i have learned that it is out of my control...
my emotional swing..
my down time...
my past hurts come haunting me..
my future....
I felt hopeless..
I felt tiny...
It's all out of my control..

Stand up and fall down..
Up and fall..
Up and fall..........

I start to wonder... When will all these be over?

Don't ask...

hahaa... Today, i hang a teddy at my laptop bag..

wahahahhaa......

:D

Don't ask y............

Today i feel..

today.. i feel i am further n further from dating.... desperate?.. i think no..

The more i come to think seriously about "dating" and "marriage"...
The more burdened i felt.. Wah! Wat a heavy responsibility....

http://konkanicatholics.blogspot.com/2006/03/kuwait-roles-of-husband-and-wife-talk.html

This is a great site for knowing each other's roles......

wow.............
It really sounds to me that... though my responsibility is to help him to be someone God intend him to be... and his reponsbility is also helping me to become someone that God intend me to be...
I need to find someone that i can fullfilled my responsibility God assigned to me.....

wow.. Come to think of it........... It seems that...... no one really fits in already........ ~

Daniel 12:10

Finally, i finished the book of Daniel this morning.

And this scripture appear to me the most.

Daniel 12:10 Many will be purified, made spotless and refined, but the wicked will continue to be wicked. None of the wicked will understand, but those who are wise will understand.

mmm.. process of purification..........
mmm.. thressing floor like what Ruth gone through..
mmm......... I start to wonder... What is God trying to teach me?

:) My strength and My heart may failed, but God is the strength of my heart...

I really started to notice..whenever i am placed in a situation of no road to go anymore.. i can still look up and He will be found..... How wonderful it is. :)

mm.. Altering my course....

mm.. Perhaps sometimes, it's great to just alter your course and heading towards another direction when the route that you used to walk, is no longer beneficial to you?

Route A: You are down.. always hits by emotion swing... Always affect by something in the past.. though sometimes happy but yet, most of the time, you are struggling to let go of something...

Route B: Begin a new route.. everything is new.... though uncertain, but yet, you can move in future with hope and joy.....

mm? I start to wonder........ in the beginning to Route B............... Am i making the right choice?

mmm....

RM1200 won.....

This morning.... woke up.. macam tak dak tenaga.. done my sit up..30 times only.. wat??!!.... n carry some weights....

dooo.. doo.........it's FLY FM "wake up your brain" section....

Question..
What is the thing that on average, women do it 5 times a month and man do it 5 times a year??.......

many answer goes........ making love.. cutting toe nail, cleaning closet, shopping... etc etc......................

and..............

This morning.. a lovely lady called......... n she said..." CRYING?".....

BINGO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Unbelievable!!!!!!!!!! CRYING??!! So SIMPLE n yet this answer never cross my mind???...........

And i start thinking....... perhaps i am always surrounded by man who cry often............... ahhahahaa......... adui.............. ! May be i should widen up my male friends to more macho type huh??? kekekee.....

:D

up swing..

...... 20%.. recharge....
.... low batt.........
...... 20% recharge...
...low batt...... :~

:D a simple smile............. >>> 70% charged..lasted for 2 days........... goshhh..........