Friends

Met 2 friends lately. Somehow, they impacted me.

1.) NO 1
-Servanthood, i can see action speaks louder than words through him and i really felt encouraged.
-Seeking after His heart.

2.) NO2
-Quiet and gentleness
-Speaks at the right time.
-Good at listening and controlling his tongue.

I thank God for them in my life. :)

Am I Looking To God?

**adopted from http://www.rbc.org/utmost/index.php?day=22&month=01
Look to Me, and be saved . . . —Isaiah 45:22

Do we expect God to come to us with His blessings and save us? He says, "Look to Me, and be saved . . . ." The greatest difficulty spiritually is to concentrate on God, and His blessings are what make it so difficult. Troubles almost always make us look to God, but His blessings tend to divert our attention elsewhere. The basic lesson of the Sermon on the Mount is to narrow all your interests until your mind, heart, and body are focused on Jesus Christ. "Look to Me . . . ."

Many of us have a mental picture of what a Christian should be, and looking at this image in other Christians’ lives becomes a hindrance to our focusing on God. This is not salvation— it is not simple enough. He says, in effect, "Look to Me and you are saved," not "You will be saved someday." We will find what we are looking for if we will concentrate on Him. We get distracted from God and irritable with Him while He continues to say to us, "Look to Me, and be saved . . . ." Our difficulties, our trials, and our worries about tomorrow all vanish when we look to God.

Wake yourself up and look to God. Build your hope on Him. No matter how many things seem to be pressing in on you, be determined to push them aside and look to Him. "Look to Me . . . ." Salvation is yours the moment you look.

How to face your future?

"We don't know what the future holds, but we do know WHO holds the future"

Common mistake #1 Planning without God..
Common mistake #2 Presuming about tomorrow.
James 4:14&16 "Why you don't even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. As it is, you boast and brag. All such boasting is evil"
Common mistake #3 Putting off doing Good
Proverbs 3:27-28 "Do not withhold good from those who deserve it,
when it is in your power to act. Do not say to your neighbor, `Come back later; I'll give it
tomorrow' -- when you now have it with you."

I admit that i always thought that i have many many tomorrows...
tomorrrow i ll do this.. tomorrow first la.. etc etc...
But sometimes, i am a bit confused.... i did planning and seek God for His direction.. many times, i don't hear answer.. And i kept waiting.. sometimes i just get frus... super frus.. and when the answer come.. i knew.. it is either His Will/ not His Will. Weird.. i just knew sometimes.........
But the waiting part..............argggghhh!!.......

I seek for a direction, be it in work, be it in relationship, be it in ministry, family, direction in life..... All i get is "WAIT"............... :(

WAIT... and how many tomorrows i have?
WAIT... and what do i need to do now?
WAIT... should/should i not give up?
WAIT... where should i labour my time?
WAIT...
WAIT..
WAIT............................

I want to act.... but i find no place to act....... :(
Felt Stuck...

But no matter wat, i trust His Timing is always perfect.
Today, I ll appreciate my life more.
I ll wait on Him.
I ll cry to Him.
And wait.................... patient/without patient.. it doesn't matter..........

Felt like being placed in a "no choice" situation........
But nevermind.... I ll persevere.............. !!.. ~~ I need to.. !

Til the one day............... when He said that it is all done............ :)

What is Love?

Love is patient,
Love is kind,
It does not envy,
It does not easily angered.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoice with the truth,
it always protect, always trust, and always PERSEVERE......

Perseverance!!! I saw many people give up on their relationships lately..be it marriage/long relationship. It has caught me into thinking.. Isn't that when 2 person come together, committed to each other, they shouldn't let go easily? Spend so much years together and til the end, you let go???

Often, we hear things like...
"ahh.....complicated................ just forget it.. you can find a better one! "
"hey.. i deserved a better one!"

I guess in life partner, there's always someone better coming along your way.
Your love one is a mere human, and he/she might wrongs you many times..
He/she might hurts you at times..
speak wrong words..
cannot perform up to your expectation...
Not sensitive to your feelings..

But, where is the commitment thing?
Liken it to the Covenant that God make with us.......... He will not forsake us no matter what.
Can you say that you are good to deserve His unfailing Love?
Did you not always seek for a better one? better money, better position, better other things in life that sometimes, you just forget that there is a God that always loves you and will not forsake you?

Relationship.......... often i guess it gets complicated.. when we forgot.. about the "COMMITMENT" that we should hold on to.

I make a covenant with God that, no matter how, i shall have no other God before Him.
I will love God with all my heart, my mind and my soul.
I will love my neighbour as i have love myself.

Liken it to commitment with someone....
I make a commitment with someone that, no matter how, i shall have no other replacement before him.
I will love him with all my heart, my mind and my soul.

God is still No 1.........
And He will be No 2........ and surely he can accepts it too. How sweet. :)

I hope HE will reveal "the intended one" to me........... and keep my heart just for HIM at this moment. I hope HE will keep his heart just for me too!

Got serious with Him?

Past few days, been getting very serious with Him.
Woke up in the morning, look at the sky and sing praise..... ~
Pray..

Just as i was praying hard for something.....
something distracts me! and.. it makes me wonder... Isn't that i pray hard for this and yet, why can i get distrated easily? Is that not double-minded!??!

Ah.. whatever it is...........

I hope i will be making a wise decision.. as it's an important decision in my life. :)

Still....... i am persevering........................... in getting His Answer.

Heart

My heart is tearing apart...

It's painful. :(
But i guess i need to keep my focus on Him alone.
I hope i ll gain strength to persevere... to trust in Him.

:)

Let me pray for..
His direction
His Timing..
His blessing. :)

Amen!

Someone was touched with the sun rising and moon rising.. Jeremiah 33... :D Yeah~ It reminded me too!.. Today, the sun rises....... :)

Be Still...

Ah! Apa?

Got a phone call...

It seems that this saturday, i cannot cook in Kitchen Ministry already.
New rule being published..
Guy+ Girl must be separated!

errrrrrrrr....... Due to?
somebody break up in the team.... errrrrrrrrrrr............ ah!!

How do i feel?
--> a bit blank..
--> huh? such rules??
--> bo huat lor... tak pa lor...........

haizzz...........~~ sad sad~~~~.... :( See how lar!

I need a revelation!!!!!!!!!!!! ~~~
Last night, once again, i broke down and cried!!... isshhhh!!!!!!!!
under pressured... But decided to pray for a direction... a sign from Him. :)

I hope..
He will show me the sign.
He will give me the perfect timing. :)

What's occupying my mind everyday?

Start to wonder.. as i read many people's blogs.... What's actually occupying my mind everyday?

frequently thought of..
eat..
God..
direction in life..
weight..
activities after work..
weekend activities.. where to go..
did i done the bible reading today..?..

errr........

once in a while.. thought of..
buy house..
buy car..
kau chai..
family...
Diving..

errr............. seems pretty shallow ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! aikssssssss
How ar?
What about you? What's your thoughts everyday?

Antidote to Indecision

Reread this.... God's antidote to indecision... :)

"He guides me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake" Psalm 23:3

Getting Guidance from God
1.) Admit that I need a guide
"Everyone of us have strayed away like sheep! We have left God's paths to follow our own." Isa 53:6
"There is a way that seems right to a man, but in the end it leads to death" Pr 14:12

2.) Ask in faith for direction
"If you want to know what God really wants you to do, ask him and he will gladly tell you, for he is always ready to give a bountiful supply of wisdom to all who ask him; but..be sure that you really expect him to tell you.. If you don't ask in faith, don't expect the Lord to give you any solid answer" James 1:5-6

3.) Listen for God's response
"God does speak--sometimes one way and sometimes another-- even though people may not understand it" Job 33:14
God speaks through..the bible.. teachers..impressions.. circumstances..pain...

4.) Trust God when I don't understand
"Your road led by a pathway through the sea-- a pathway no one knew was there!!" Ps 77:19
"Trust in the Lord with all you heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all you ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight" Pr 3:5-6
"The steps of a man are established by the Lord.. When he falls, he shall not be hurled headlong because the Lord is the one who holds his hand" Ps 37:23-24

Ps 77:19 reminds me of the great story during the time of Moses... :)

An example of this is from the Old Testament when the children of Israel were finally set free from Egypt after 400 years of slavery. Moses had gone to Pharaoh and said, "Let my people go" and Pharaoh said he'd had enough, get out. They leave. The whole nation starts marching out to freedom and the first thing they come to is the Red Sea. On one side of them is a mountain range that is uncrossable. On the other side is another mountain range that is uncrossable. In front of them is an ocean. Behind them, in hot pursuit, is the Egyptian army that has changed its mind and decided to come and slaughter them all. What is God going to do now? The path looks like a dead end. But God knew exactly what He wanted to do. He was preparing them for a miracle. He was preparing them for deliverance. He had not made a mistake because He could see what they could not see. He opened the Red Sea and they walked through.
A hope of direction..
A hope for decision..
A hope for miracle. :)

Kerachut Cook

Feb 3, 2007

Andrew, Pei Wen, Eugene, Woon and I.

Went to Kerachut...

1hour+ hike..

plan to cook

1.) Char bi hun +cabbage

2.) Pan Cakes

3.) Fried eggs with dried prawn

but yet.. item 1.. failed.. Y? because someone as sweet as me, as nice as me...(and that is me) forgot the bring the bi hun!!!! so end up with fried cabbage.. kekeke~

Some nice photos taken.

Relaxing by the beach.......
dua orang entah buat apa...

wah.. future wives.. hahaha
hahahaha.. 5 warriors..... observe my bag carefully.... itu "wok" i carry.. macam kura-kura..but i love it a lot!!!

AWOD end March

I am going for diving again. To take my lisense of Advanced Open Water Dive.
Changing to a new buddy this time.

Sometimes, when i am being thrown into the whirl of wilderness..... I see beaches... sunlight... sea breeze..........

I dreamt of sea once again..................... passing through the valley................. a magnificent view........... and i was with tears..............

The song just kept running through my mind.......

"When the ocean rises and thunder roars... I will soar with you above the storm.........."

Decision Decision..

It's always the decision part that is hard, isn't it?

When you already decide something, then you just stick with it, but when you are in the midst of deciding something.. it just got u into wilderness, worries, impatient.....

Once again, i am in the cross road... I know the decision i should make. But, i just wish that it's not the wrong decision based on my own analytical and limited mind.

Many things happened.. which i really don't understand...

I asked Him... Why?.. Once again, i asked.. "Why?"...

I have learned that, we need to stop searching for answers.. because a lot of questions in life, there will be no answers for it...

A children died due to desease... Why?

A innocent girl got killed.. Why?

A faithful Pastor died due to cancer...Why?

Parents killed their own childrens.. Why?

I was told to be like Job. God allows the sufferrings... Yet, Job persevere.. persevere.. and finally he broke down... But, where do he gain the strength from? He gain from Him. He asked Him... Job searched the answers through Him.. But yet, he did not find. Human minds are limited. Stop searching for answers... but to find HIM in whatever circumstances. :)

I suffer for an answer................

I am sick of pressing on............

I am tired of even want to make that decision.......

I gotta learn to stop searching for an answer.. don't I?

I will wait on Him for the decision.

I need wisdom.

Abide in His Love and yet......... i look despair........................... I need a revealation.. of How Great His Love is.. How Deep His Love is.... How wide His love is...........~~

Hebrew 12:1-3

Run the race..persevere.. and keep focus on the Lord.. focus... til you complete the race and He said.."well done, my good and faithful servant!"

:) i nearly give in to trying to be equal again.. but these verses reminded me once again that i should FOCUS... FOCUS on the CROSS. :)

I hope I will be obeying the Lord in whatever way...
As i choose to do that natural things.. He will do the SUPERNATURAL. :)

yes!

At the Cross

At The Cross

Oh Lord You’ve searched me,
You know my way;
Even when I fail You,
I know You love me.

Your holy presence
Surrounding me
In every season,
I know You love me;
I know You love me.

At the cross I bow my knee,
Where Your blood was shed for me,
There’s no greater love than this.
You have overcome the grave,
Your glory fills the highest place,
What can separate me now?

You go before me,
You shield my way,
Your hand upholds me;
I know You love me.
And when the earth fades,
Falls from my eyes,
And You stand before me,
I know You love me;
I know You love me.

You tore the veil,
You made a way
When You said that it is done.

It's great that everytime you persevere, everytime you overcome certain temptation of giving up, giving in..etc....... the Lord says "Well done, looks, it's over!! It is done! "

IT's great! :)