Gloomy

Did not sleep well last night.

Woke up upset.

Gloomy day.

The sun is hardly seen............

Trying hard to put a smile on my face. Bizarre!

oh boy. I hope all gonna be better soon.

A day before flying off

So, a day before flying off.
Just written down the things to pack.
Gotta change some ruppee and USD tomorrow.

Check out the news in SL. wow, dangerous huh?

Hope be able to have a successful trip, had my SL crab and come back...

i miss squash...................... so sad........................
:~

:~

lately i been waking up in sadness.

I dreamt of my hand being pulled the other day and i was in pain.
:(

felt sad due to this ligament injury at my right shoulder and right wrist.
:( just felt i cannot play squash..cannot swim..cannot play badminton, cannot even play tennis already... :~ so sad...........

:(
:(.........
:(

sad.

then, my koko... computer spoilt kenot online..... :~ felt so empty without him......
koko..... i miss u eh......
my hand painful ma.... :(
:~

koko......where r u....

Yummy!

Moon darling called........ hehehee... gave me this lovely CNY gift.. muaks..

wah, what a lovely note..

hahaa.. the process of eating the cake.... :P Enjoying the tasty raisins.. hahhaa... little bite..become bigger..bigger and bigger.....

***ooppsssss**********

end up had 1/4 of it.. too shy to show to photo. :P

Muaks! what a nice moon darling i had. Her HMC.

What a fruitful "harvest".. :P

Went USM jog 10 rounds this morning.. heehhe~

and 1030am..start to pick my ptlk.. his duty is to help me shop for working clothes next week for SL Navy. hehehe~
430pm.. finally kau tim.


Look!
Total money spent= RM393.90.
Got 9 clothes altogether, averagely is RM43.77 per piece. (Zaman sekarang..aiseh..)

oh! Finally, i got the FOS water botel already..instead of the earth one, i got the "leaf" one. Pretty Cool huh? heheehhee... RM5 ..

Ok la, so many office attires!! Yeah... !

my ptlk only get a surfing pants.. almost got a watersport shoe..haha! lucky i stopped him. He is a SHOE man.. full of shoes.. i really thought he gonna go back there and get that shoe.. hahaha, let's see..

:)

> Me: Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to hurt more than moving in the right direction.What should I do?
> God : Success is a measure as decided by others. Satisfaction is a measure as decided by you. Knowing the road ahead is more satisfying than knowing you road ahead. You work with the compass. Let others work with the clock.
> Me: Sometimes I ask, who am I, why am I here. I can't get the answer.
> God : Seek not to find who you are, but to determine who you want to be.Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are here.Create it. Life is not merely a process of discovery but a process of co-creation. You are my co-creator.

> Me: How can I get the best out of life?
> God : Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence.Prepare for the future without fear.

> Me: One last question. Sometimes I feel my prayers are not answered.
> God : There are no unanswered prayers. At times the answer is NO.

> Me: Thank you for this wonderful chat.
> God : Well. Keep the faith and drop the fear. Don't believe your doubts and doubt your beliefs. Life is a mystery to solve not a problem to resolve. Trust me. Life is wonderful if you know how to live. "Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take but by the moments that took our breath away!

Heath Ledger

http://edition.cnn.com/2008/SHOWBIZ/Movies/01/22/heath.ledger.dead/index.html#cnnSTCText

I finally know who is Heath Ledger.
The actor in "A knight's tale". man..... i love that show. :~

He is dead?

I am speechless. Things often happen unexpected.

It reminded me 1 thing again.. "life is when you look back and you realized that you have no regrets at all". :)

Cloverfield

I love this show! fantastic. A really different perspective.

It tells its monster story from the perspective of a funny guy(party goer-named Hud) hand held video camera, captures the mayhem as the monster destroy the city.

I love Hud. He is funny, observant, curious. ;) He(haha, i know it's the director).. really makes me felt if i were there in the show, perhaps, those are the scenes that i gonna capture too! hahaaha~~

And congrates!!

The estimated ticket sales for jan 18-20 for Cloverfield hits NO 1. ($41million).

Finally-->Odette Yustman! She is simply........marvelous! ;)

Advise for those who have yet to watch the show, please wait for the credits to finish before you go out form cinema. ;) i missed that!

I miss Squash!

So, i injured my wrist + right shoulder.

My body:
1.) Shoulder
Left--> ligament injured during Karate session last time :(
Right--> ligament injured during squash last friday. :(

2.) Wrist
Left--> Praise God..good!
Right--> Ligament injured during badminton the day after house of bethel. :(

3.) Knee
Left--> will pain if run too much,such as penang bridge
Right--> will pain if run too much, such as penang bridge
still ok la..! yipee!!

4.) Ankle
Left--> Yipee! Good
Right--> Injured during 2005 squash :( Serious injury! :(

Alamak~~
Pray Pray God heal all~ AMEN!

I love the previous weekend 19-20 Jan

Been missing from workplace since thurs, fri + mon. hehehe~~

secret agent..wakaka~

But Sat + Sun were really nice.

1.) Met up with Pr Palan for farewell before he and family fly back to Nepal.

alamak! just got to know my Nepal Darling got new darling already.. no chance ady. hehee

2.) PCC kitchen ministry. hehee. Today my tailou join us ler. So.. nice team.. we tax a lot of chicken when we fried them......end up.... hahahahaa..chicken not enough to sell.. haha!!

3.) Bernard's Birthday!

What an awesome weekend! I simply Love it! ;)

oh..holiday finish

Today 1 thing i learned.

When you talk to irritating people, you just have to be patient and try to think what can you learn.

Perhaps, simply PATIENCE.
I nearly got pissed off again by someone who is really irritating!! ish!
But lucky.......on the way driving back, i keep thinking. Perhaps, there's something that i need to learn. And that is to be professional. :)

:) Yeah, Be professional.

:)

Chin Yin is on Holiday

Simply frus!

Declaration: I NEED MY SPACE.

In this PERIOD:
1.) please don't disturb me
2.) please give me a break
3.) please forgive my ignorance
4.) please forgive my harshness

I will be cool soon. ;)

Simply feeling bad

Tears, once again, roll down my cheek....

I am not sure if i am not being tactful of voicing out something.

:( I just felt bad.

I hope i will not need to handle this anymore.

:(

Green Pasture

Someone told me, he sometimes need space for his own to recharge his battery.

I guess. I am in that stage too.
I need my space.
I need a time to quiet down.
I need to seek Him in every area of my life.
I need to experience His heavenly rest.

Psalm 23
The LORD is my shepherd;I shall not want.He makes me to lie down in green pastures;He leads me beside the still waters.He restores my soul...

Lord, restores my soul, would you? Leads me beside still waters.... makes me lie down in green pastures....... I need a rest.......... I need you.

No title

It was a great prayer meeting last night.

On the way back, FLY FM was having this girl asking a guy whether he is interested in dating her. And he said "NO, because they are colleauges". I guess...Embarrassment first, follow by Anger and Regret.

And i run through my memory bank, searching for similar encounter in my life.
Strange, I could hardly recall one within a short time.
It just as if very LONG time ago......

Rushing back for my conference call at 1130pm... I finally set up my laptop and........one message appeared....

followed by pressure..
followed by frustration.......followed by impatient...
followed by anger...
followed by my boldness to voice up my decision once again......
..and soon............. it followed by my message ... "I JUST GOT PISSED OFF!"

**A moment of silence**

.......Soon, I couldn't focus in my conference call... My emotion was rampant...
I guess the night did not went on well.....

I hope we can maintain as friend.

Love, sometimes, can turned out to be quite scary and pressure.
1 thing i learned, LOVE, is not possession.

I finally understand how my little notty star felt. :)

Family Outing

sloOk! So i missed this in 2007 resolutions!!!

And i just thought, this year, i can do better?

Dad, Mum, my bro, my sis and i, go outing together...?
Need Prayer to make it a success....... I hope our family bond can be closer this year.;)

Dad been complaining bout mum.......
hahaha.. So i told dad.. Dad, u r the Leader..come on.. :)
Amen to my family bondage this 2008! Also their salvation.

Powerless

Last night, i have this "powerless" feeling....

suppose to fix my toilet seat, clean up the toilet, fold my clothes and tidy up my room, bathe the puppy.... but right after CG and the con call.......... i just lie on bed...... ZZZzzzz.....

I suddenly felt.... powerless...

I just sang to Him this morning..... ;) You r my strength.

First Prayer Meeting Tonight! Let's anticipate His presence again!

My Buddy Birthday yesterday

yesterday was my buddy birthday~ hehhe~ Happy Birthday!!
Let me post some of our photos..hehehe~~ Wah, miss those time!!

WIsh you all the best in life!!! yeah~~

PicasaWeb

I love this photo a lot!! heheeh~

I used to use Kodak Gallery. NOw i suddenly found PicasaWeb..Wah, Cool~

House of bethal Photo~

http://picasaweb.google.com/ChinYin8701048/HouseOfBethal?authkey=u5qSYFPOPFY

hehee, very nice!

Kerachut Hike photo~

http://picasaweb.google.com/ChinYin8701048/KErachutHike02?authkey=UOs3l-XrARM

Life..

Grabbed a cup of milo and sat down with one of the manager.. and.. the RND big boss joined us. wow, first time i ate breakfast with him.

Had a nice chat though.
About life.....

He shared that 30years ago, he was doing his degree in UK.
He was using the punch card computer for programming, moving on to big tapes..smaller, smaller...
13 Jan was his 50th birthday.
And his first experience of people passed away was his dad. He saw him burning into ashes.....and..there goes a person... Life~
He has learned that we need to leave a legacy behind.

I shared with him on the movie i watch, Meet Joe Black.
Anthony Hopkins said.."Life.....is when you look back, and there's no regrets at all"

:) What a great breakfast i had this morning.

Personal Encounter with God

Before going up to the House of Bethal, Penang Hill. I have been praying for a personal encounter with God regarding my past relationship, especially.

WOW~ God is really awesome!

12 Jan 2008-> Exactly 2 years after i broke up.
And.. 12 Jan 2008, afternoon, 4-5pm. God spoke to me when i was praying in the Prayer Room. A special room dedicated for prayer.(Sounds sacred, right?? That's what i believe.)
It's actually a free and easy time, but i just had the burden to go in the room and prayed for all my friends + my stuffs.

Right after my prayers for friends, i prayed about the direction for me in my past relationship. I just wanted to confirm, whether whatever He said of asking me to let go is right ~2 weeks back.

And, suddenly..when i quiet down............ God reveal the scriptures to me in Isaiah 65:17-19

Isaiah 65:17 “ For behold, I create new heavens and a new earth; And the former shall not be remembered or come to mind. 18 But be glad and rejoice forever in what I create; For behold, I create Jerusalem as a rejoicing, And her people a joy. 19 I will rejoice in Jerusalem, And joy in My people; The voice of weeping shall no longer be heard in her, Nor the voice of crying.

I wept................. :~

:) God is awesome!

God's Best

I said "I guess i am still struggling..."

He said..
"If you have made a clean break and both of you understood each other, that both of you are platonic friends only, nothing more, nothing less, than you can share wih him. But if it is still blur and therefore he still harbors that you will still go back to him and therefore sending the wrong signal to him becasue of your sharing with him, then I prefer to err on the side of caution. "

"Well, whenever there is a vacuum, the vacuum will always be filled, either now or later. However, the question is we want God's best. "

"yes, God is a match maker. By the way, just a question, do you have a lists of criteria for the person that you desire to marry in the future?"

mm.. Yes. I said.
"I want a man that.. 1.) After God's heart 2.) Matured and responsible 3.) Commitment towards personal growth 4.) Integrity 5.) Positive attitude towards life 6.) have clear vision n direction .. major 6. Then 7,) accept the way i am. "
"i think i have listed 29 spec last time til, very small thing like.. know how to cook, common interest, backpacking together..etc."
heheehehhe~~ Amen to that First! Yeah

10-8

Finally, i won!
10-8.

:)

Next target= 9-5

I can do all things through Him who give me strength! Amen.. heheheehhe~

I miss my big bro!

When i am tired and felt i need some comfort..
i miss my big bro!

When i am happy and get something new that i wanted to share..
i miss my big bro!

When i am walking the path myself..
i miss my big bro!

I just need to walk the path myself..don't i? ;)

I stick this at my cubicle today!

A Call to Radical Commitment
by Rick Warren

Today I am stepping across the line. I'm tired of waffling, and I'm finished with wavering. I've made my choice; the verdict is in; and my decision is irrevocable. I'm going God's way. There's no turning back now!

I will live the rest of my life serving God's purposes with God's people on God's planet for God's glory. I will use my life to celebrate his presence, cultivate his character, participate in his family, demonstrate his love, and communicate his Word.

Since my past has been forgiven, and I have a purpose for living and a home awaiting in heaven, I refuse to waste any more time or energy on shallow living, petty thinking, trivial talking, thoughtless doing, useless regretting, hurtful resenting, or faithless worrying.

Instead I will magnify God, grow to maturity, serve in ministry, and fulfill my mission in the membership of his family.

Because this life is preparation for the next, I will value worship over wealth, “we” over “me,” character over comfort, service over status, and people over possessions, position, and pleasures. I know what matters most, and I'll give it all I've got. I'll do the best I can with what I have for Jesus Christ today.

I won't be captivated by culture, manipulated by critics, motivated by praise, frustrated by problems, debilitated by temptation, or intimidated by the devil. I'll keep running my race with my eyes on the goal, not the sidelines or those running by me.

When times get tough, and I get tired, I won't back up, back off, back down, back out, or backslide. I'll just keep moving forward by God's grace. I'm Spirit-led, purpose-driven and mission-focused, so I cannot be bought, I will not be compromised, and I shall not quit until I finish the race.

I'm a trophy of God's amazing grace, so I will be gracious to everyone, grateful for everyday, and generous with everything that God entrusts to me.

To my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, I say: However, whenever, wherever, and whatever you ask me to do, my answer in advance is yes! Wherever you lead and whatever the cost, I'm ready. Anytime. Anywhere. Anyway.

Whatever it takes Lord; whatever it takes!

I want to be used by you in such a way, that on that final day I'll hear you say, "Well done, thou good and faithful one. Come on in, and let the eternal party begin!"What does this mean?Today, I affirm this commitment to God and submit to his plans and purposes for my life, no matter what it takes.

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:~ :)

So i said.."I guess, conclusion: we are not good to married."
"I dunno....."

emmm......... A sudden sadness hit me. :~

A new day, a new beginning.

Forget the former thing, do not dwell in the past.... :)

wooowwwoo..

Last nite, just as all of us were sitting down, preparing to eat the food we order after squash.....
WALOW, suddenly everybody run towards the other side......!!
ppl shouting.."bomb bomb.."

hahaa, rupa rupa nya, at then congee stall, the fire was burning beside a gas! wow!!
And..... lucky, as a matter of fact that i am still here....it is clear that we are safe~ :) Thank God.

9-8

WOW, yesterday marked the highest score i ever get with him!

hehehehehe~~
With my new shoe.. i get 9-8 for the first match!! wahahahha~~ So happy..........

Dunno is it he let me win/ am i winning by myself ar? hahaa, Whatever.......... wow!! :D

I must get 9-0 for future.. yeah!!

Great weekend!

hehe, went to CinTa Sayang golf resort for LRA training..
Fu YO! First time play GOLF! ahhahaa~ So nice.. hit 200balls.. hahhaa..~~

Then play the slides..fu yo! cool!! hehee..

but a nite before.. aiseh, sort of got angry with ppl.... make me felt so bad whole saturday~ but lucky i apologize..hehehe..and settled;)

today, went get my badminton shoe at BJ..hehehehe~~~ Finally got it for RM55.90. Rather than spoilting my RM599 ASICS.. hehehe~~

Finish the 30mins Jog!

After so long i did not jog..(kinda pick up on squash lately).. I finally finished my 30mins jog just now.

;) hehehe~ Don forget i want to complete the bridge run in 2.5 hours this year!!
January is fading...............
March is coming.....WOW~
It means my Sipadan Trip is coming too.. hehehe~~

Wow.. I am anticipating a GREAT year~~
But i also hope God will move me into a different level of Maturity this year. AMen!

:)

Y cry over spilled milk?

Yes, why do we cry over spilled milk?

I guess the decision doesn't really bother me that much already. Weird.
I hope January would be a great month.

Seems like 2008 will flash through very fast.....WOW~

Should i get a guitar?

"no la, u pls go n borrow from someone and practise first, see whether you like it or not?"
"good suggestion... tq"

mm, i guess he is right. Many things that i wanted to get.

A squash shoe.
A tennis shoe.
A tennis lesson.
A guitar lesson.

My friend said i am lost.. all also want.
Just 2 only, i said.. Tennis + Guitar.
And i am only fascinated with guy who play piano well.
;)

Lust

So i was almost finishing the "Boy Meets Girl".
It was at the chapter of the meaning of sex.

Interesting chapter.
As i was reading it, i understand how we should set the boundary with our partner to help us not to fall into the temptation of sins(action). And another important sin is lusting over your partner in your mind.

I was just telling my friend, perhaps the next bf i have, i would not want to kiss him either. Ha!! He said i am nuts! But i guess, perhaps that's the right thing to do?

I guess i often struggle over the temptation of fantasizing something in my mind too. At times, when i kinda like a guy, i would think whether can i hug/kiss him. !! And now, i knew, actually, those are LUSTs.

I also get to know and treasure a relationship which build on Wisdom and patience. ;)
Let's continue to pursue holiness.
Amen!

Squash Racquet

Wow, the racquet i saw, i just love it!
So light!
So cool!

"i want to get a new squash racquet..."
"don la.."
"yes boss.."

;) hahaa~~

Wow, KC is cool!

Wow, so long i did not went Wednesday squash session.
Yesterday i went.

Wow, a cute boy named KC, he is so cool!!
His stroke was really good!!!
I like his footwork too!

;) Great squash session last nite.
Of course i seen him too... my idol boss..hehehehe~

God's will in your life?

He asked.. "What do you think is God's will in your life?"

I said." i guess, everything is like the puzzle which ultimately form into 1 big picture, that is for God to bring the people back to Him. And my part would be, to use my very best talents, impacting lives. Pursue Christlikeness."

:)

I guess it's better that way

"Hey, why not you consider him?"
"..............."
"pray about it and i can felt the chemistry between you both"
".................."
"He is matured and he is the type that you are looking for"
".....nope, he is not......"
"i am sure he is..."
"..nope, he is not...."
"He is matured..... and i can tell that u like him too.."
"....................."

I am speechless. And i guess the night ended with me deciding to stop talking and say good night.

Speechless. Once again, the same thinking run through my mind.......
i guess, it's better that way. ;)

Looking back at Cross Road

I guess, on the very last seconds of 2007, i have made a decision and i prayed about it during the counting down.............. Happy 2008!! ;)

I felt the tear in my heart. But, it's better for long term, i guess.
Tears flow down my cheek that night.

I just can't have it all, can i?
It's not good to have it either, i guess.

:) Let me look forward and press on to achieve the goal which He has called me in heavenWard.

1 Jan 2008

Just thought of recording down what i have done in the very first day of 2008.

10..9...8...7..6...5...4...3...2...1... Happy 2008!
I was in PCC counting down with church members.. yeah~~ Happily and Sleepily entering into 2008!

Had my very first piece of cakes in PCC, wow, Nice chocolate+cheese!! n my very first cup of Milo!!
And there i went back sleepy, but i chat with 2 friends of mine........... til 3am++.. wow~
And..

9am, woke up for breakfast at Pulau Tikus then hit right to Botanical garden..took photos all around~ Walked around with Ipod! hehee...And then hit to gurney plaza..

Nearly bought squash racket (Rm160) + tennis shoe (RM229), but i tahan!!!
hehehee.. Met Vincent and his gf...~
Went MPH bought a very nice gift to my beloved CL~~
Went to Fish n Co had lunch + some argument..(haha! apa lar)
Then visit my beloved CL~~ Gave him the present..heehe.. Great that He love it!! :D
ANd went perkaka eat dinner , hit home......

ZZ from 830pm til 830am!! complete 12hours!! Entering into 2 Jan 2008......hahahahaha~~~

Happy 2008!!!! ;)

2008!!

When i looked at the calendar yesterday, 1 JAN 2008!!
Wow, suddenly i just had a mix feeling!!!
1998 i was entering University, with my young and innocent look......
2008..now.. although still young and innocent la..(ahem)..hahaha.. I am stepping into a year of Exponential.

Yeah~ An Exponential Year, as i have painted and prayed yesterday morning. ;)

Spoke to a few friends about their new year resolutions.
Some wish to be successful in career, multiply the CG, closer walk with God, settle down in a committed relationship, etc. I pray and hope that God will answer their prayers. Surely i will pray for them too! Amen!